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So, someone please tell me what's the purpose of a "tumblr". I feel like some person with no originality whatsoever made it thinking that no one would notice its exactly like livejournal, but with a new name. Well you ain't gunna pull a fast one on me honey, your creativity sucks and you should most likely be embarrassed. But because everyone has one and i dont, i figured i'd just do this instead(:
Day One: Ten things I want to say to ten different people.
1- I wish i looked anything remotely close to you. You're like my idol
2- I thought we were friends, but ohhhhhh i was so wrong. You used me, to get to him, and when you had him, you still used me, and when you gave up on him, you threw me away like trash. But guess what honey, you're the worthless peice of shit because even though we no longer talk, you're stillllll trying to be me. And sorry to break it to yuh, you never will. Leave, and take your fake tan with you, and get the fuck out of my life.
3- Sometime i just want to punch you in the face and tell you to grow the fuck up. You're screwing up not only your life, but the one little girl who looks up to you mosts life. You put yourself before her, and that makes you a selfish inconsiderate jackass. I say that because i deeply care about both of you, and i wont stand here and watch you ruin her life and yours. You don't deserve that, and she as sure as hell doesnt it. Even though i can't stand to hear your name right now, i love you because we're blood<3.
4- I cry everytime i think about you. And its never just one drop, its a constant flow of tears to the point were i can no longer breathe. Evertime someone says the phrase "well theres a reason for everything" i take a second and think of you because i can't fathom the reason why you were taken from us so early. I feel pain and sadness for your family everytime i see them, but especially for your parents, they break my heart the most. I sometimes find myself wishing i could trade places with you, because you had so much to offer life, and so much drive, that God truly took a good one with him. No one will ever understand that sadness you fill my heart with, and it will continue to ache till i see you again<3. I miss you my PB
5- When it comes to you, i feel like the worst person in the world. I feel like a coward because i'm constantly running away from my responsibility to you, and i feel like i've neglected you when you've certainly needed me most. But the thing that people can't and will not ever understand is, is that you're not the same person i once knew. Yeah sure, we bring up the past and things we use to do, but its not the same, and i can't explain it and i fear it never will be. With you, its like walking on eggshells. The littles thing makes my skin jump, and to have their responsibility of you most of the time is overwhelming. But to have you forget the sentence you just told me literally a minute ago, breaks me. I feel like you're fading before my eyes, and i can't watch it. I won't. I don't want to remember you like this. Its too hardd for me. I hope one day you'll understand, but for now, i'm sorry.
6- You are only of the only people i feel like i can open up to. We don't get together that often but when we do, we pick up right where we had left off last time. But when we talk about our lives, i look at you and see that you aren't happy. Sure you say you are, but shit, who would complain about getting a bootycall whenever they want. She doesnt treat you the way you should be treated but i can't make you see that but you're caught up in the lust of everything. So for now, well continue our talk-seshs, because i really do enjoy them.
7- You're something else i swear. Its hard for me to be your friend after everything we've been through. I admit, i was in the wrong at first, but you took it to a whole new level. And yes, i still resent you. I mean, how can i not. You cheated on me with my bestfriend and expected me to not find out. What do you take me for, an idiot ? At least she had the balls to tell me about it. And what hurts was that i knew we coulda been good together, but you ruined that, and never will i ever trust you.
8- I think your the like one person that even though you hurt me, i dont resent you for it as much as i should. Reason being, you saw me when no one else was looking. I can truly say, you loved me for me. You saw the inner me and made feel as i was worth something. Im glad to say we got to catch up a bit, but shortly after you had to get ahold of my ex and now, me and you are kind of on the rocks i guess you can say. Don't listen to his bullshit, you know the real me.
9- Everytime i hear your name, i cringe. You used to be my rock, my backbone, my solution to every problem, but now you're just the problem and a waste of energy. Youll never change, and im sick of waiting for you to growup. I have more to say, but you're just a waste of my breath so im done with you now. Go back to your fakeandbake girlfriend, you both are meant for eachother. Pathetic low lives.
10- I use to consider you as my best friend. You had me fooled being someone so genuine. But your true colors came out my friend. You let people walk all over you and you dont even care and that is the reason i can't talk to you, because im not just gunna sit here and let you get ran over by people who dont give a shit if you make it out alive. I use to see that you were worth something more, but now, you're just as fake as the rest of them.
Day One: Ten things I want to say to ten different people.
1- I wish i looked anything remotely close to you. You're like my idol
2- I thought we were friends, but ohhhhhh i was so wrong. You used me, to get to him, and when you had him, you still used me, and when you gave up on him, you threw me away like trash. But guess what honey, you're the worthless peice of shit because even though we no longer talk, you're stillllll trying to be me. And sorry to break it to yuh, you never will. Leave, and take your fake tan with you, and get the fuck out of my life.
3- Sometime i just want to punch you in the face and tell you to grow the fuck up. You're screwing up not only your life, but the one little girl who looks up to you mosts life. You put yourself before her, and that makes you a selfish inconsiderate jackass. I say that because i deeply care about both of you, and i wont stand here and watch you ruin her life and yours. You don't deserve that, and she as sure as hell doesnt it. Even though i can't stand to hear your name right now, i love you because we're blood<3.
4- I cry everytime i think about you. And its never just one drop, its a constant flow of tears to the point were i can no longer breathe. Evertime someone says the phrase "well theres a reason for everything" i take a second and think of you because i can't fathom the reason why you were taken from us so early. I feel pain and sadness for your family everytime i see them, but especially for your parents, they break my heart the most. I sometimes find myself wishing i could trade places with you, because you had so much to offer life, and so much drive, that God truly took a good one with him. No one will ever understand that sadness you fill my heart with, and it will continue to ache till i see you again<3. I miss you my PB
5- When it comes to you, i feel like the worst person in the world. I feel like a coward because i'm constantly running away from my responsibility to you, and i feel like i've neglected you when you've certainly needed me most. But the thing that people can't and will not ever understand is, is that you're not the same person i once knew. Yeah sure, we bring up the past and things we use to do, but its not the same, and i can't explain it and i fear it never will be. With you, its like walking on eggshells. The littles thing makes my skin jump, and to have their responsibility of you most of the time is overwhelming. But to have you forget the sentence you just told me literally a minute ago, breaks me. I feel like you're fading before my eyes, and i can't watch it. I won't. I don't want to remember you like this. Its too hardd for me. I hope one day you'll understand, but for now, i'm sorry.
6- You are only of the only people i feel like i can open up to. We don't get together that often but when we do, we pick up right where we had left off last time. But when we talk about our lives, i look at you and see that you aren't happy. Sure you say you are, but shit, who would complain about getting a bootycall whenever they want. She doesnt treat you the way you should be treated but i can't make you see that but you're caught up in the lust of everything. So for now, well continue our talk-seshs, because i really do enjoy them.
7- You're something else i swear. Its hard for me to be your friend after everything we've been through. I admit, i was in the wrong at first, but you took it to a whole new level. And yes, i still resent you. I mean, how can i not. You cheated on me with my bestfriend and expected me to not find out. What do you take me for, an idiot ? At least she had the balls to tell me about it. And what hurts was that i knew we coulda been good together, but you ruined that, and never will i ever trust you.
8- I think your the like one person that even though you hurt me, i dont resent you for it as much as i should. Reason being, you saw me when no one else was looking. I can truly say, you loved me for me. You saw the inner me and made feel as i was worth something. Im glad to say we got to catch up a bit, but shortly after you had to get ahold of my ex and now, me and you are kind of on the rocks i guess you can say. Don't listen to his bullshit, you know the real me.
9- Everytime i hear your name, i cringe. You used to be my rock, my backbone, my solution to every problem, but now you're just the problem and a waste of energy. Youll never change, and im sick of waiting for you to growup. I have more to say, but you're just a waste of my breath so im done with you now. Go back to your fakeandbake girlfriend, you both are meant for eachother. Pathetic low lives.
10- I use to consider you as my best friend. You had me fooled being someone so genuine. But your true colors came out my friend. You let people walk all over you and you dont even care and that is the reason i can't talk to you, because im not just gunna sit here and let you get ran over by people who dont give a shit if you make it out alive. I use to see that you were worth something more, but now, you're just as fake as the rest of them.