Ivy is doing great, growing like a weed! She has finished her kindergarten Math and John has started on First Grade math with her. We are about halfway through English and Phonics. She's reading a little, even.
John got promoted to CNA supervisor and he still likes his job so that's good. He works a lot but we need the money, and at least he enjoys what he does.
I on the other hand, haven't been doing too well since Mom died. I haven't been able to pull out of the depression and most of the time I feel like I'm merely existing, no more than that. My Dr. is trying me on some different antidepressants and we still haven't gotten the dosage right yet. So basically I feel like shit all the time. To top that off, I turn 35 Tuesday. Wasn't I just 20?
I haven't touched my school stuff since Mom went into the hospital. I keep buying extensions every 3 months, thinking that I will get back to it, but until I get my meds straightened out I think it's pretty hopeless.
I have some days that I feel a little better, but I'm mostly tired all the time and don't really want to do anything. I get out of the house because I know I have to, and I talk and laugh like usual, but there's always that rock in the pit of my stomach, you know?
I took some pictures today of Ivy at her friend's birthday party. You can see what she looks like now :)
You can poke around the rest of my photobucket album if you want, but it's not that exciting. There are some cute pictures of my cats and some cool pics of the sims 2 stuff I'm doing though.
my god wytch...she's amazing! they grow so fast. my erin got her first period not too long ago...christ! she's now officially a sims player, got her the double--sims and livin large. watching her play is fun, watching her try to control 8 sims is a riot. i'll soon give her the money cheat then she'll be flying!
i'm so sorry grief has been holding onto you for so long now:(( it's not easy to let it go and sometimes guilt comes along with letting it go as if you'll forget her, but you won't i promise. it doesn't get 'better', just easier. allow yourself that, a bit at a time, and you'll see.
hahahahaha....not converted to the sims 2 yet? Try controlling that many sims then! I know people that play like 20 sims on one lot with a cheat...I don't get how they do it lol
John got promoted to CNA supervisor and he still likes his job so that's good. He works a lot but we need the money, and at least he enjoys what he does.
I on the other hand, haven't been doing too well since Mom died. I haven't been able to pull out of the depression and most of the time I feel like I'm merely existing, no more than that. My Dr. is trying me on some different antidepressants and we still haven't gotten the dosage right yet. So basically I feel like shit all the time. To top that off, I turn 35 Tuesday. Wasn't I just 20?
I haven't touched my school stuff since Mom went into the hospital. I keep buying extensions every 3 months, thinking that I will get back to it, but until I get my meds straightened out I think it's pretty hopeless.
I have some days that I feel a little better, but I'm mostly tired all the time and don't really want to do anything. I get out of the house because I know I have to, and I talk and laugh like usual, but there's always that rock in the pit of my stomach, you know?
I took some pictures today of Ivy at her friend's birthday party. You can see what she looks like now :)
http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v212/Faedra/Ivy/
You can poke around the rest of my photobucket album if you want, but it's not that exciting. There are some cute pictures of my cats and some cool pics of the sims 2 stuff I'm doing though.
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i'm so sorry grief has been holding onto you for so long now:(( it's not easy to let it go and sometimes guilt comes along with letting it go as if you'll forget her, but you won't i promise. it doesn't get 'better', just easier. allow yourself that, a bit at a time, and you'll see.
*hugs*
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