Being nostalgic makes it hard to be productive
Ack, one day I will remember not to kill my post as I'm just about to make it. I think we need to turn this into a bad joke: Expect Rob to eat his well thought out, heartfelt post at least once before each bi-weekly or longer post. I feel so livejournal stupid right now it's not even funny.
Someone please point me to the icon that most represents ineptness. I need to add it to my list.
I'm suffering a terrible disease of nostalgia right now. I want to blame it on the catch-all fact that I've turned 30 recently, but I don't know if that's what I can attribute this feeling to. I've been thinking about a lot of people, all clustered in these unique stages of my life, that I don't have any kind of contact with anymore. And the shame is that many times, none of those people ever had contact with anyone I do interact with now. So, once they start to slip away....they're just gone out of my life. No powers of google-fu, or my creation of a facebook, or this livejournal, or anything else has so far helped me bring them back into my circle.
And I'm scared that maybe it's because I can't handle having the size friend's circle I want to have. I'm about five years overdue on an email back to Leigh. I managed to track down Jonathan Megginson and drag him back into my life - and for what? - I didn't email enough and I lost him to the ether again. Natalie deserves a really good, long-written email that is five months behind and will probably push further than that. I've not exactly been the poster child for upholding my end of the relationship. But I want this - I may not have ever shown it, or said it, but there are a lot of people that stay in my thoughts...that I wish were more represented in my life.
I haven't been really good about putting the personal stamp of my touch on things. Not here in livejournal, not in email, through the phone, or in letters. So, if I want this I need to make changes. Life is busy, but (albeit a bit longer after being eaten by my elite posting skills) this post only took a few minutes. I need to get away from the screen of work and life being too busy. Yeah, it f'ing is, but that's no excuse for good friends.
Lj-friends, all of you, I think about you and keep you in my thoughts. Even when I don't post and I don't comment, I try to keep track and wonder how you're doing. Yates, I really wonder how you're doing man. Nyssa, did I read it right that you're engaged? Dare I say I haven't sad congrats? Shame on me for that. Everyone, don't think you're not important. You are very important, and dear. Thanks for reading this.
Someone please point me to the icon that most represents ineptness. I need to add it to my list.
I'm suffering a terrible disease of nostalgia right now. I want to blame it on the catch-all fact that I've turned 30 recently, but I don't know if that's what I can attribute this feeling to. I've been thinking about a lot of people, all clustered in these unique stages of my life, that I don't have any kind of contact with anymore. And the shame is that many times, none of those people ever had contact with anyone I do interact with now. So, once they start to slip away....they're just gone out of my life. No powers of google-fu, or my creation of a facebook, or this livejournal, or anything else has so far helped me bring them back into my circle.
And I'm scared that maybe it's because I can't handle having the size friend's circle I want to have. I'm about five years overdue on an email back to Leigh. I managed to track down Jonathan Megginson and drag him back into my life - and for what? - I didn't email enough and I lost him to the ether again. Natalie deserves a really good, long-written email that is five months behind and will probably push further than that. I've not exactly been the poster child for upholding my end of the relationship. But I want this - I may not have ever shown it, or said it, but there are a lot of people that stay in my thoughts...that I wish were more represented in my life.
I haven't been really good about putting the personal stamp of my touch on things. Not here in livejournal, not in email, through the phone, or in letters. So, if I want this I need to make changes. Life is busy, but (albeit a bit longer after being eaten by my elite posting skills) this post only took a few minutes. I need to get away from the screen of work and life being too busy. Yeah, it f'ing is, but that's no excuse for good friends.
Lj-friends, all of you, I think about you and keep you in my thoughts. Even when I don't post and I don't comment, I try to keep track and wonder how you're doing. Yates, I really wonder how you're doing man. Nyssa, did I read it right that you're engaged? Dare I say I haven't sad congrats? Shame on me for that. Everyone, don't think you're not important. You are very important, and dear. Thanks for reading this.