fuuuuuck
I am so fucking overwhelmed right now with all these God damn songs I have to sightread/learn. I mean seriously. Even my advisor/director said he was an asshole for putting so much singing shit on my plate, but that he needs me. I've almost cried in both B-Band and Small Group rehearsals like 5 or six times. It sounds pathetic, but thats how I feel. Cuz I keep trying and trying and then I always fuck up. Last week I had a head ache for like a week straight. Then I had a melt down in front of my advisor and I was ok for a few days, and now the head ache's back. Ugh. And I got flea bites all over my fucking feet from my neighbors apartment, which have prevented me from getting a good nghts sleep for the past few nights, cuz they won't stop itching, even with my anti itch shit. This isn't a pity party, I just need to vent. It just doesn't seem to be getting any easier.