BACK AGAIN
Well, I am back again. I just love the desert. Lol. I wish you could hear the sarcasm in my voice right now. Lol. I enjoyed my time at home. It was really great to see my son. It was nice to see my family and all of my friends again. I hope I continue to hear from them all. I am talking to JAG today. I want to find out what kind of options I have as far as coming home to take care of Jordon. I would rather not chapter out, but I will if I have to. I would much rather get a temperary leave so I can go home and take care of things. Then I could leave him with my parents for the time that i had left in the army. They already told me that they would watch him for as long as I needed. They said they would even raise him if they had to. I don't know. I don't even know if I could get custody of him. I probably couldn't prove most of the things, but I can try. Oh well. Nothing I can do right now. No sense sitting here steaming over it. I will just go more insane than I already am...if that is even possible. Lol. I think I have given up on having feelings until I am completely free of Ayla. It seems like everything just gets mixed up, blown out of proportion, or just flat out messed up. I don't know what is wrong with me. Am I that desperate that I have to lay everything out there even when I know I shouldn't? I feel so bad about causing issues with Justine and her husband. I just hope she will get ahold of me pretty soon so I can talk to her. Anyway, got to get back to work. Yuck. Those words tasted bad as they came out. Lol. I feel like I should go wash my mouth out now. Lol.