Reflections on October 2016
I'm going to make this short and sweet as I have a fuck ton of other things I need to be writing, so I don't want to spend too much time on this.
The good things about October were Alchemy, getting visited by one of my loves (though sadly only for a day), going to Ascension at The Masquerade, getting DiscerningDeviant.com launched, and going to the American Murder Songs show.
The bad things about October were excessive expenses mostly relating to Alchemy, the peeping tom craziness, and crushing loneliness.
It was a technically good month that doesn't feel like it was very good because at the end of every day I still lack the basic thing that I crave, companionship. And I feel like as long as I am in Atlanta, I will always lack that, which means that it's going to be a very, very long time before I get to have a life that satisfies my requirements for a life worth living (please shove your ideas about how I should be measuring the value of my life straight up your ass). My challenge right now is to keep myself moving forward towards that future like a man who hasn’t eaten in days somehow keeps walking in case there’s a sandwich on the other side of the endless horizon.
The good things about October were Alchemy, getting visited by one of my loves (though sadly only for a day), going to Ascension at The Masquerade, getting DiscerningDeviant.com launched, and going to the American Murder Songs show.
The bad things about October were excessive expenses mostly relating to Alchemy, the peeping tom craziness, and crushing loneliness.
It was a technically good month that doesn't feel like it was very good because at the end of every day I still lack the basic thing that I crave, companionship. And I feel like as long as I am in Atlanta, I will always lack that, which means that it's going to be a very, very long time before I get to have a life that satisfies my requirements for a life worth living (please shove your ideas about how I should be measuring the value of my life straight up your ass). My challenge right now is to keep myself moving forward towards that future like a man who hasn’t eaten in days somehow keeps walking in case there’s a sandwich on the other side of the endless horizon.