Today, I faced a fear!
The following has nothing to do with K-Pop:
When I was in high school I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. This basically means that I get incredibly worried about stupid things.
One of the things I worry about the most is contamination. Especially food and water. This is actually how I got diagnosed with GAD: because I was so obsessive about eating "clean" food, my therapist thought that I had an eating disorder. I don't. I don't really care if I get fat, I just don't want my foods to touch.
I probably worry the most about contaminated water. Who knows why -- it's not like I've ever gotten e-coli from it or something, although I vividly remember watching the whole Walkerton thing on TV and being seriously freaked the fuck out. I live about two hours from Walkerton and it's probably around then that I got it into my head that water = imminent death.
And standing water is just unsettling. The moment someone says, oh I don't know, hot tub, I get the shudders just thinking about all of the germs and dead skin cells floating around in that bacteria stew pot. And if that standing water is outside, say, a pond or a lake? Maggots. Mosquitoes. Swamp monsters.
Doesn't look so innocent now, does it?
So anyway, today my mother was seeding a pomegranate (which, of course, involves a bowl of water). She wasn't going to give me any and I was whining, so she said, "Look. If you put your hand in this water for thirty seconds you can eat the whole thing."
She didn't think I would do it, which is why she said it (nasty nasty mother, wanting to keep that pom all to herself). So I plunged my hand into the bowl of water and, uh...
Well, I spent the entire thirty seconds vaguely shaking with my dry hand clenched into a fist, thinking: i'mma fucking punch a bitch! Standing water has a really weird viscosity that I find incredibly unpleasant on my skin. And since it was tap water, and the water is really soft, I could see the salt and calcium floating around in it. I don't like seeing particles in my water. Fucking gross.
Still, I managed to survive thirty seconds and after washing my hands I got to eat the entire fucking pomegranate. So there.
I'm not sure what the moral of this story is. I will face irrational fears for pomegranate seeds? Woo?
Anyway, here! Have a suggestive Taemin gif:
I know I've been bad at updating lately, but I've been laid up with the cold from hell and school is stupid.
When I was in high school I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder. This basically means that I get incredibly worried about stupid things.
One of the things I worry about the most is contamination. Especially food and water. This is actually how I got diagnosed with GAD: because I was so obsessive about eating "clean" food, my therapist thought that I had an eating disorder. I don't. I don't really care if I get fat, I just don't want my foods to touch.
I probably worry the most about contaminated water. Who knows why -- it's not like I've ever gotten e-coli from it or something, although I vividly remember watching the whole Walkerton thing on TV and being seriously freaked the fuck out. I live about two hours from Walkerton and it's probably around then that I got it into my head that water = imminent death.
And standing water is just unsettling. The moment someone says, oh I don't know, hot tub, I get the shudders just thinking about all of the germs and dead skin cells floating around in that bacteria stew pot. And if that standing water is outside, say, a pond or a lake? Maggots. Mosquitoes. Swamp monsters.
Doesn't look so innocent now, does it?
So anyway, today my mother was seeding a pomegranate (which, of course, involves a bowl of water). She wasn't going to give me any and I was whining, so she said, "Look. If you put your hand in this water for thirty seconds you can eat the whole thing."
She didn't think I would do it, which is why she said it (nasty nasty mother, wanting to keep that pom all to herself). So I plunged my hand into the bowl of water and, uh...
Well, I spent the entire thirty seconds vaguely shaking with my dry hand clenched into a fist, thinking: i'mma fucking punch a bitch! Standing water has a really weird viscosity that I find incredibly unpleasant on my skin. And since it was tap water, and the water is really soft, I could see the salt and calcium floating around in it. I don't like seeing particles in my water. Fucking gross.
Still, I managed to survive thirty seconds and after washing my hands I got to eat the entire fucking pomegranate. So there.
I'm not sure what the moral of this story is. I will face irrational fears for pomegranate seeds? Woo?
Anyway, here! Have a suggestive Taemin gif:
I know I've been bad at updating lately, but I've been laid up with the cold from hell and school is stupid.