Home from work... stuff in the moment
... did about 5 hours today...mostly mellow with a little computer freak out stress... but I managed to stay out of most of the arguing and noise... which was good. I did feel rather foggy brained alot of the day... hard to pull up answers to simple questions and trouble getting my thoughts unscrambled and out of my mouth... and very draggy feeling. was very odd. But in due time, I got home and was good again... changed out of the allergen infested clothes, took a shower and am now hanging in my room - ready to fall over for want of a nap.
One thing thats odd that i have been noticing, along with feeling like I have a really bad case of the droppsies most days... is that lately my typing and my spelling have been really pecular. I dont know if this is me jumping at shadows... but i figure noting it is good. if it is nothing, then we can chuckle over it later.
oh... and the other thing thats been in my head... I realized today that I am really fixated on "Next"... whats next, what will i do, where will i go... and at the same time very "eh" feeling about most everything... its really a challenge for me to stay in the moment and focus on me, on getting well, and on resting. I suppose I should be used to this by now... but its still annoying ya know? so my aim for today is to focus on the moments and bring my attention back to the present as much and as often as possible and while I in the present... seek to find the beauty and joy in it, even if its a sucky moment.
woof.
something tells me I am going to need to repeat all that several times a day for a very long long time... lol... right... focus on the moment. -- nap time!
One thing thats odd that i have been noticing, along with feeling like I have a really bad case of the droppsies most days... is that lately my typing and my spelling have been really pecular. I dont know if this is me jumping at shadows... but i figure noting it is good. if it is nothing, then we can chuckle over it later.
oh... and the other thing thats been in my head... I realized today that I am really fixated on "Next"... whats next, what will i do, where will i go... and at the same time very "eh" feeling about most everything... its really a challenge for me to stay in the moment and focus on me, on getting well, and on resting. I suppose I should be used to this by now... but its still annoying ya know? so my aim for today is to focus on the moments and bring my attention back to the present as much and as often as possible and while I in the present... seek to find the beauty and joy in it, even if its a sucky moment.
woof.
something tells me I am going to need to repeat all that several times a day for a very long long time... lol... right... focus on the moment. -- nap time!