Very frustrated
When I called the mental hotline tonight and said I was down and needed someone to talk to, the therapist asks do you feel suicidal? I know she has to ask that question to make sure I pose no danger to myself--because that's her job and if she doesn't ask it and I did something to myself that would be on her concience-- but why would saying that I felt down automatically lead her to conclude that I might be suicidal. Psychiatry, therapists are so full of absolute shit. The whole mental health system needs to be reworked. Let's do away with the whole concept of mental health and start accepting feeling of loneliness, isolation, anger, frustration, helplessness, and so on for what they really are--reactions to circumstances rather than disorders of the brain or mood illnesses or indicators of abnormality. I am a human being, I have a concience, I have a soul, I have feelings, I have moods, I have desires, I have needs. I am not some soulless robot! If and when I have suicidal thoughts, I am certainly not going to reveal them to a worker in a system that continues to victimize me. If I had said yes--which I haven't been feeling by the way--but what if I had than that empowers my therapist to report that to my doctor who can committ me involantarily, force me to take psychiatric medicines to correct (i.e. punish) a suppossed chemical imbalance causing a justified depression, keep me in the mental hospital for an indertiminate amount of time, restrict my access to the outside world, keep me locked in a cold, lonely, antiseptic environment, not allow me to bathe when I want, eat when I want, force me to attend therapy sessions that oftentimes repeat the same themes over and over, and stick me in with a bunch of other people who are as or more depressed than myself--how does that empower me, how does that relieve me of the circumstances that make me feel frustrated or "down", how does that inspire in me trust in the people that I turn to? So do I feel suicidal? Thoughts of suicide may cross my mind now and then but they are just that--thoughts. I don't think there is a person out there who has not considered the possibility--the reality of dying is one of the only absolute truths I know of. Suicide is as preventable I suppose as deciding to live. Ah well I guess I could've said sarcastically "Yeah I'm down so my natural reaction is to jump off a bridge--stupid silly bitch (my therapist). Any thoughts from others?