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Totally and utterly blah. I can't believe something I've thought about and even worried about pretty much my whole life just did a 180 yesterday to the other extreme of the situation and no i'm scared about something new. No, I don't wanna talk about it. It has nothing to do with Jason, he's been incredible about it. He's kinda upset to, but more for me than anything. He kept telling me how much he loves me last night and how I deserve more and to be happy all the time becuase I'm such an amazing person. And he kept trying to get me to smile, -really- smile. I mean I could laugh last night at the t.v. shows, but like it wasn't the same. We snuggled and cuddled and he soothed me and gave me a long, relaxing message. I don't know what I would have done without him. I really love him so much.