oh that right i am at work oops
so i have been here almost 5 hours and have nothing work related
i cant seem to concentrate
jen is dc safe
that makes me happy
i talked to my sister today
earlier this week her and my niece were fighting
talked to them both
told my sister that i support my niece hating her father
after we got off the phone my sister wanted to know who i thought i was
as it was said - cara was always the good sister
ive never hear her talk about cara that way
good to know
told her what i thought
to some extent
didnt have the energy to get into all knock down drag out argument while we are both at work
i also have realized that i cant take stuff like that from her
her and my dad
what they says cuts thru all of me to my soul
i want to tell her that the words R hears from him do more harm than all the other stuff
just like all those years of hearing her and what she thought about being gay
hurt me more than she knows
purged alot of shit today randomly
got random car accident shit taken care of
dentist appt - now i am coming after you Lauren
the cds - too bad i forgot them there
okay i should do some work
especially since i am taking 2 days off next week to spend with my love
cant decide if i want to go out tonight
i could barely make it out of bed at 930 this morning
and i got be here at 830 am tomorrow morning
ick
i should go out tonight and see t and b and have a good time
but i am tired
and i feel like i easily fall back into hermit mode and not go out
so should i go out because i feel i should
or should i lay in bed and watch a movie and sleep
i cant seem to concentrate
jen is dc safe
that makes me happy
i talked to my sister today
earlier this week her and my niece were fighting
talked to them both
told my sister that i support my niece hating her father
after we got off the phone my sister wanted to know who i thought i was
as it was said - cara was always the good sister
ive never hear her talk about cara that way
good to know
told her what i thought
to some extent
didnt have the energy to get into all knock down drag out argument while we are both at work
i also have realized that i cant take stuff like that from her
her and my dad
what they says cuts thru all of me to my soul
i want to tell her that the words R hears from him do more harm than all the other stuff
just like all those years of hearing her and what she thought about being gay
hurt me more than she knows
purged alot of shit today randomly
got random car accident shit taken care of
dentist appt - now i am coming after you Lauren
the cds - too bad i forgot them there
okay i should do some work
especially since i am taking 2 days off next week to spend with my love
cant decide if i want to go out tonight
i could barely make it out of bed at 930 this morning
and i got be here at 830 am tomorrow morning
ick
i should go out tonight and see t and b and have a good time
but i am tired
and i feel like i easily fall back into hermit mode and not go out
so should i go out because i feel i should
or should i lay in bed and watch a movie and sleep