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I am stressed. It started with seemingly good news: I was offered a job in Paris. At first I was quite excited, but after looking at the details I just don't know what to do. It's with AFP, the oldest news agency in the world, who have just started their own TV production and are expanding quite a lot. I sent them my showreel and they really loved it, wrote me this whole email about how young and fresh and exciting I am (haha). Now I need to decide how much I love them.
The good:
The bad:
I just can't bear seeing even less of my girlfriend than I already do. But I also don't want to turn away great opportunities, if this is one, which I can't really be sure of. We have spent most of our weekend so far examining flight details and apartments in Paris and staring endlessly at our joint account. I hate this, I hate associating my weekend time with stress and finances and big decisions when it should be about music and laughing and sex. My contract at the BBC is up in September anyway, which makes me think I should take it.......but then we really can't afford to be flying back and forth every weekend, and how long can we go on living so far apart anyway? It's just unnecessary strain. I'm supposed to be giving them my decision by Monday.
*brain melts*
The good:
- I'd be living in Paris.
- I'd get to use my languages a lot, not just French.
- Lots of interesting job potential in the future as they expand.
- Job involves travel, reporting round France etc.
- Working on national and international news again.
- Amazing contacts for international commissioning etc.
- I'D BE LIVING IN PARIS.
The bad:
- At least at first, the job is more than 50% office-based rather than constant reporting.
- It's only a 6- (maybe 12-) month contract, though renewable.
- The salary is about the same as my current job. The fact that it's in Euros and the tax system is way different over there means I'm finding it really hard to make a comparison...but a yearly salary gets split into 13 because you get 2 months' worth in December, so the net result is I'd probably have less every month. Plus I'd be spending a lot more on travelling back home.
- I'd be even further away from Hannah.
I just can't bear seeing even less of my girlfriend than I already do. But I also don't want to turn away great opportunities, if this is one, which I can't really be sure of. We have spent most of our weekend so far examining flight details and apartments in Paris and staring endlessly at our joint account. I hate this, I hate associating my weekend time with stress and finances and big decisions when it should be about music and laughing and sex. My contract at the BBC is up in September anyway, which makes me think I should take it.......but then we really can't afford to be flying back and forth every weekend, and how long can we go on living so far apart anyway? It's just unnecessary strain. I'm supposed to be giving them my decision by Monday.
*brain melts*