A Letter to an Ex-Bestfriend
So recently one of my best friends told me they hated me and didn't want to be my friend any more for no reason. Today she spazzed out on me because apparently I did something terribly bitchy to her: put her change on the table when I gave her back her change after she bought a prom ticket. To me that is so immature and Middle Schoolish! But anywho I wrote her a note, and I love the outcome of it. I had to send it by email because she won't talk to me, and she won't answer any of my calls. To me it is deep, and I wanted to share it with you guys.
I hope you don't automatically delete this when you see it's from me. I really hope you don't.
I have a lot of things to say. First off, I never wanted this to happen, and I still don't understand the reason as to why it happened. You have always been my closest friend out of the bunch, I was able to tell you everything and anything I wanted with the hope and knowledge that you wouldn't tell anyone else. And I knew that you wouldn't because you are the bomb, and you still are even after what happened.
I know Graham and Larissa played a big part in this. Larissa for one told you stuff that was on my facebook, and Graham, well I don't see the point in why you can't like me because I sometimes don't like him. He doesn't make your life Amanda. The people around you do. I used to be one of those people, but now I'm an outsider looking in, and it makes me feel really sad to know that I am no longer apart of your life. Some days I feel like crying, just out of nowhere crying. But, I hold it in. I gotta be strong. You always told me to be strong and I've come to my senses.
I'm also hurt by the fact that you called me a hypocrite. Matthew pointed out to me the other day, when I told him you called me that, that everyone is a hypocrite in a way. And I usually don't listen to Matt because he makes absolutely no sense, but he did that day. So in that case we are all hypocrites. Even the people in Africa are hypocrites. I'm glad to know I'm not a lone.
And, on Friday in the morning when I stood with the guys and Ashley, Brooke, Kim and Karli came to stand beside me as well, a little birdy told me afterwards that you told Brooke and Ashley "You committed a sin by standing with her". Do you not know how much that makes me feel like a bad person. Not only does it hurt my feelings, but it pains me to know you think of me as the devil.
I want this fighting to end. I don't know how I can be your friend because what I want to be is your best friend. Like we once were. I never meant to do or say anything that could hurt your feelings. I wish I never had a problem with any of your friends, I wish I never talked to Graham, and mostly I wish none of this would have happened. But for now, I'm just an outsider looking in, and from the looks of it thats all I'll ever be.
-Tori.
I hope you don't automatically delete this when you see it's from me. I really hope you don't.
I have a lot of things to say. First off, I never wanted this to happen, and I still don't understand the reason as to why it happened. You have always been my closest friend out of the bunch, I was able to tell you everything and anything I wanted with the hope and knowledge that you wouldn't tell anyone else. And I knew that you wouldn't because you are the bomb, and you still are even after what happened.
I know Graham and Larissa played a big part in this. Larissa for one told you stuff that was on my facebook, and Graham, well I don't see the point in why you can't like me because I sometimes don't like him. He doesn't make your life Amanda. The people around you do. I used to be one of those people, but now I'm an outsider looking in, and it makes me feel really sad to know that I am no longer apart of your life. Some days I feel like crying, just out of nowhere crying. But, I hold it in. I gotta be strong. You always told me to be strong and I've come to my senses.
I'm also hurt by the fact that you called me a hypocrite. Matthew pointed out to me the other day, when I told him you called me that, that everyone is a hypocrite in a way. And I usually don't listen to Matt because he makes absolutely no sense, but he did that day. So in that case we are all hypocrites. Even the people in Africa are hypocrites. I'm glad to know I'm not a lone.
And, on Friday in the morning when I stood with the guys and Ashley, Brooke, Kim and Karli came to stand beside me as well, a little birdy told me afterwards that you told Brooke and Ashley "You committed a sin by standing with her". Do you not know how much that makes me feel like a bad person. Not only does it hurt my feelings, but it pains me to know you think of me as the devil.
I want this fighting to end. I don't know how I can be your friend because what I want to be is your best friend. Like we once were. I never meant to do or say anything that could hurt your feelings. I wish I never had a problem with any of your friends, I wish I never talked to Graham, and mostly I wish none of this would have happened. But for now, I'm just an outsider looking in, and from the looks of it thats all I'll ever be.
-Tori.