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It's been a long week. I've still got two days of work left too (Friday and Saturday). I'm more or less into the swing of things now, at work, that is, but it's been really tough. The week in review:
- I miss theater already. I've only been working at Lowe's a week, and I already miss working in theater.
- I'm scared already and want to go back and get a proper degree. but...
- I've also learned that I don't want a job, because jobs suck. They break up your day into completely unusable chunks (at least, my job at Lowe's does) and they leave you too tired to want to do anything at the end of the day anyway. There is always too much work, and not enough pay. There are too many managers and rules, all of which only succeed in making it harder to do your job, rather than easier.
- I haven't had a proper meal since I started because an hour for "lunch" is not enough time to cook something, but it's awkwardly long to order fast food (or pizza or something). Cooking dinner at midnight just feels weird, and cooking a full meal is the last thing I want to do when I wake up.
- The knots in my back are insane
and finally, I hate my job, case you hadn't noticed.
a few last things before I sleep:
1) I apologize for the bitching nature of this post, I'm having trouble adjusting to actually having to work, and I really don't enjoy going anyway. I'll probably write more on that later. (perhaps remind me, if you want to hear)
2) I've noticed that I have inadvertently picked up some of the grammatical habits of my coworkers (at least when I speak). It doesn't usually manifest itself, but I apologize also if I let slip an accidental "ain't" or some equally southern phrase. I doubt it will show up in my typing, but we'll see.
3) (related to #1, above) If you do happen to see me in person, or talk to me online, I may be very short with you, I will try very hard not to, but I've been very stressed and frustrated lately, so it's bound to happen accidentally. (granted, with my work schedule being what it is, I find it unlikely I'll actually see anybody in the next six months.
sleep.
- I miss theater already. I've only been working at Lowe's a week, and I already miss working in theater.
- I'm scared already and want to go back and get a proper degree. but...
- I've also learned that I don't want a job, because jobs suck. They break up your day into completely unusable chunks (at least, my job at Lowe's does) and they leave you too tired to want to do anything at the end of the day anyway. There is always too much work, and not enough pay. There are too many managers and rules, all of which only succeed in making it harder to do your job, rather than easier.
- I haven't had a proper meal since I started because an hour for "lunch" is not enough time to cook something, but it's awkwardly long to order fast food (or pizza or something). Cooking dinner at midnight just feels weird, and cooking a full meal is the last thing I want to do when I wake up.
- The knots in my back are insane
and finally, I hate my job, case you hadn't noticed.
a few last things before I sleep:
1) I apologize for the bitching nature of this post, I'm having trouble adjusting to actually having to work, and I really don't enjoy going anyway. I'll probably write more on that later. (perhaps remind me, if you want to hear)
2) I've noticed that I have inadvertently picked up some of the grammatical habits of my coworkers (at least when I speak). It doesn't usually manifest itself, but I apologize also if I let slip an accidental "ain't" or some equally southern phrase. I doubt it will show up in my typing, but we'll see.
3) (related to #1, above) If you do happen to see me in person, or talk to me online, I may be very short with you, I will try very hard not to, but I've been very stressed and frustrated lately, so it's bound to happen accidentally. (granted, with my work schedule being what it is, I find it unlikely I'll actually see anybody in the next six months.
sleep.