rememberance....

[wvw_cheer07]

how is it that rainy days always make you remember the good ol' days when you were most happy..like when you rode your bike for the first time..when you got your first kiss..when you first fell in love.. but after a while you soon remember that after that all happened you hated it..when you fell, bad bike, when your second kiss wasnt as good as the first..and when your first love broke your heart..but through all of those expirences you learned that everything isnt as it seems..just like how i thought being in a relationship, with the one guy that i thought made me happy, but then come to relize that our relationship was nothing but the same to our first...i wish i could even remember my first relationship..my first real relationship..not the ones we thought we had, and really i wish i could remember my first kiss..now i know that sounds just crazy and why am i just going on about this, about stuff that happened that i cant even remember...like when i rode my first bike..
all of this is coming from one source, my real dad...why did he leave me and not leave me a not even saying why he had to leave? did he love me at all and does he miss me?
all of this is also coming from arey...did he really love me/

now i know that no one wants to read this about my past life and all that but i just had to get it outta my head...