Venting
So I was in a really bad mood earlier.
I'm better now, but I'm bad at speaking aloud.
So Ima get it all off my chest here.
I went kinda insane yesterday and emptied all my drawers out with a lot of throwing of everything...
It actually relieved a lot of stress.
I was upset because my roommates left, and I thought that could mean the end of the strongest friendship I've made since Masterman. I was abandoned by Sarah, and it felt like I was being abandoned by those people who helped me through college without her.
I wasn't, and I know that, and I knew it all along, I was just being irrational.
Then today bad feelings came back.
I moved out of Temple, life is completely changing.
I didn't know how to handle that.
I found out my Aunt thinks I'm a terrible influence on her children basically, who will expose them to sex drugs alcohol and homosexuality.
My mom and sister had a screaming match over something completely unnecessary.
My dad was watching tv downstairs, so I went to my room to watch Glee.
This somehow made my mom think I'm being antisocial and don't want to be part of the family.
So she yelled at me about that.
I don't have a job yet, and that's stressing me out.
My grades haven't been posted yet.
Leaving my dorm room was really hard because of all the incredible memories that were made this semester.
I know I overreacted, it just all built up.
Now I'm gonna go watch Gilmore Girls because time is moving backwards, and my 10th grade self is telling me to watch it.
I'm better now, but I'm bad at speaking aloud.
So Ima get it all off my chest here.
I went kinda insane yesterday and emptied all my drawers out with a lot of throwing of everything...
It actually relieved a lot of stress.
I was upset because my roommates left, and I thought that could mean the end of the strongest friendship I've made since Masterman. I was abandoned by Sarah, and it felt like I was being abandoned by those people who helped me through college without her.
I wasn't, and I know that, and I knew it all along, I was just being irrational.
Then today bad feelings came back.
I moved out of Temple, life is completely changing.
I didn't know how to handle that.
I found out my Aunt thinks I'm a terrible influence on her children basically, who will expose them to sex drugs alcohol and homosexuality.
My mom and sister had a screaming match over something completely unnecessary.
My dad was watching tv downstairs, so I went to my room to watch Glee.
This somehow made my mom think I'm being antisocial and don't want to be part of the family.
So she yelled at me about that.
I don't have a job yet, and that's stressing me out.
My grades haven't been posted yet.
Leaving my dorm room was really hard because of all the incredible memories that were made this semester.
I know I overreacted, it just all built up.
Now I'm gonna go watch Gilmore Girls because time is moving backwards, and my 10th grade self is telling me to watch it.