Feb 20, 2010 18:46
I am perfectly comfortable with not loving him. With all the shit he's pulled (talking about me behind my back, making my mother cry, expecting me to be something I am not, etc.) I don't think I can love him how he is. Despite the fact that he is an angry person and this may be the way he is...he doesn't have to bitch and whine about everything all the time.
AND I DON'T HAVE TO BE ONE OF THEM.
And its not MY PROBLEM HE DIDN'T USE A CONDOM AND IS STUCK IN A MARRIAGE HE HATES.
Really. Not. My. Problem.
He also didn't do SHIT when he was 18.
I HAVE A JOB.
I HAVE SOME COLLEGE UNDER MY BELT.
I HELP MY MOTHER.
I ALSO DIDN'T SPEND MY COLLEGE FUND ON STUPID CARS AND MADE MY MOTHER CRY ABOUT IT.
HA. WHOSE THE FAILURE OF THE FAMILY NOW, BITCH?!
And he is NOT MY FATHER OR MY MOTHER. HE DOES NOT TELL ME WHAT COLLEGE TO GO TO, WHAT TO DO, WHERE TO GO, ETC. I DO WHAT I DO.
I. AM. ME.
GET USED TO IT.
-Z