recap
Man, I am so glad I got to see folk again. We really need to get together more often cause those are some great people. I think Sofie's right, the group of Bush friends is sorta like us except with balls, mostly. Thing is that we weren't having quite as much fun as we were just catching up with eachother. We spent most of the night just talking about what's going on in our lives, most of which are falling apart times four.
Angela has a sex life. She's always been the asexual one. She almost completely transitioned to boyness but now her best friend Joel and her actually have something going. They have something that I think everyone should be envious of. I mean, I think the relationship they have is what everyone should be looking for. It's beautiful.
The limo was so fun. I think that's where we got out a lot of our immaturity as well as while Nina was opening gifts. We watched thumb wars and then The Ring. Man, that movie is well edited. I really love the shots and the filming. I think it's done really well. Sofie and Liz were rediculously frightened. It was so amusing. Especially cause Sofie's seen it before and she wasn't that scared the first time she saw it. Oh.. in the limo we would yell at people on the sidewalk and watch people turn and look at the limo. People always look at limos. Hehe. It was so fun. We went to the space needle too. That was fun even with my extreme terrifiedness of hights.
Alex, Nina's little brother, got really cute. His hair looks really good and he's just lookin good. He's very attractive. I feel kinda weird saying that cause he's like... 14, but he's really only about two and half years younger than I am. He's cool though he has horrible taste in music. He still does what I tell him to do. He used to cause he had a crush on me, but now, I dunno. In December I slept next to him. That was nice. I like human contact.
Speaking of sleep, I didn't get much last night.. er this morning, or whatver. I was the last to fall asleep. It took me at least two and a half hours to fall asleep. I think I finally drifted off at around 8 or 8:30 and woke up at 10:30 or 11. Ugh. I can't even remember sleeping. I mean, I dreamt about being on the bus and such but otherwise... I felt like I was just closing my eyes and when I opened them Angela was gone. I keep having dreams about everyone I know leaving me or dying. It's not very comforting.
I have to wonder. Is it better to listen to your head or your heart. Cause you're mind is logical, but this logic is generally taught and influenced from all sorts of outside things. We should really go with our gut feelings. We really feel things with our hearts. Our hearts are completely unaffected by what we are taught. It feels without logic or reason because why does it need logic or reason? Your mind is finding reasons for everything. Why do you even need reasons? If something is true, you feel it. You should go with what your heart tells you because you know it's true.
I need friends that I know won't ditch me.
I love Garth... Today I went with him to mason's house and we just were hanging around for a while. I ate dinner there. That family is crazy. I love 'em. Mason is convinced that I am a druggy.
I really want to talk to Dimitry. Damn lateness.
I am going to watch a movie with my brother. YAY!
Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.
Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.
Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.
Defining, confining, controlling, and we're sinking deeper.
Give away the stone.
Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone.
Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.
Let go.
- Tool
Angela has a sex life. She's always been the asexual one. She almost completely transitioned to boyness but now her best friend Joel and her actually have something going. They have something that I think everyone should be envious of. I mean, I think the relationship they have is what everyone should be looking for. It's beautiful.
The limo was so fun. I think that's where we got out a lot of our immaturity as well as while Nina was opening gifts. We watched thumb wars and then The Ring. Man, that movie is well edited. I really love the shots and the filming. I think it's done really well. Sofie and Liz were rediculously frightened. It was so amusing. Especially cause Sofie's seen it before and she wasn't that scared the first time she saw it. Oh.. in the limo we would yell at people on the sidewalk and watch people turn and look at the limo. People always look at limos. Hehe. It was so fun. We went to the space needle too. That was fun even with my extreme terrifiedness of hights.
Alex, Nina's little brother, got really cute. His hair looks really good and he's just lookin good. He's very attractive. I feel kinda weird saying that cause he's like... 14, but he's really only about two and half years younger than I am. He's cool though he has horrible taste in music. He still does what I tell him to do. He used to cause he had a crush on me, but now, I dunno. In December I slept next to him. That was nice. I like human contact.
Speaking of sleep, I didn't get much last night.. er this morning, or whatver. I was the last to fall asleep. It took me at least two and a half hours to fall asleep. I think I finally drifted off at around 8 or 8:30 and woke up at 10:30 or 11. Ugh. I can't even remember sleeping. I mean, I dreamt about being on the bus and such but otherwise... I felt like I was just closing my eyes and when I opened them Angela was gone. I keep having dreams about everyone I know leaving me or dying. It's not very comforting.
I have to wonder. Is it better to listen to your head or your heart. Cause you're mind is logical, but this logic is generally taught and influenced from all sorts of outside things. We should really go with our gut feelings. We really feel things with our hearts. Our hearts are completely unaffected by what we are taught. It feels without logic or reason because why does it need logic or reason? Your mind is finding reasons for everything. Why do you even need reasons? If something is true, you feel it. You should go with what your heart tells you because you know it's true.
I need friends that I know won't ditch me.
I love Garth... Today I went with him to mason's house and we just were hanging around for a while. I ate dinner there. That family is crazy. I love 'em. Mason is convinced that I am a druggy.
I really want to talk to Dimitry. Damn lateness.
I am going to watch a movie with my brother. YAY!
Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity.
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate.
Desperate to control all and everything.
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen.
Wear the grudge like a crown. Desperate to control.
Unable to forgive. And we're sinking deeper.
Defining, confining, controlling, and we're sinking deeper.
Give away the stone.
Let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor.
Give away the stone.
Let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold.
Let go.
- Tool