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I don't feel like I have a grasp on anything. Which is good, I guess, opposed to my stubborn previous notion that I had a grasp on everything.
Sex is a very weird thing. You can love it and hate it at the same time. Well, at least I do.
But it's not sex: It's sex appeal. It's the conscious knowledge that you're being taken advantage of in someone else's mind; of knowing that you're looked at solely because you have something someone else is lusting for. It's something many strive to achieve, but resent when it is achieved.
I'm too indecisive, and have finally realized I won't find a relationship, because I won't ever let myself.
Can someone walk into my life with the perfect balance of what I need? I don't think so, because that may be a lot.
&To think I don't have high expectations. But I gave up about 3 days ago. I don't know what it was, but it made me not care anymore. &NOw I'm completely at peace with whatever may come. [Really.]
Sex is a very weird thing. You can love it and hate it at the same time. Well, at least I do.
But it's not sex: It's sex appeal. It's the conscious knowledge that you're being taken advantage of in someone else's mind; of knowing that you're looked at solely because you have something someone else is lusting for. It's something many strive to achieve, but resent when it is achieved.
I'm too indecisive, and have finally realized I won't find a relationship, because I won't ever let myself.
Can someone walk into my life with the perfect balance of what I need? I don't think so, because that may be a lot.
&To think I don't have high expectations. But I gave up about 3 days ago. I don't know what it was, but it made me not care anymore. &NOw I'm completely at peace with whatever may come. [Really.]