nirvananana
you know whats weird...there are moments when i am filled with this complete feeling of happiness and perfection...and then five seconds later i am filled with this feeling of sadness and lonliness. you would think there would be some sort of balance between the two....like an OK feeling. but theres not. no matter what im filled with, happiness, sadness, lonliness etc, i am always empty.
anyways...that was wayy to personal for lj. so LEX and B you are the fucking best. you ALWAYS go out of your way to make me feel happy, and that really means more to me than you will ever know. i fucking love you guys.
well...now that i have the nirvana box set cus my friends are fucking awesome, there are three things that scare me about it:
1. kurt cobain would have hated it. HATED it. he would never want any sort of recognition or accolade for what he did. he never thought that he did anything. well...he didnt really do anything. he just created music, put what he felt into words. he just didnt realize that tons of people felt the exact same way and just couldnt verbalize it the way he could. you think he wanted to be called the fucking voice of the generation? fuck no. he hated that, and who could blame him? he didnt think he could fucking speak for himself, nevermind an entire generation. so yeah...he was a fucking genius, but he never could recognize that, and he didnt want other people to see that either. so yeah...he would have hated this.
2. this fucking box set is in every fucking cd store in the country, probably the world. this means anyone can just go and get it, not recognizing the true art and genius that it really is. fucking axl rose could go buy it and people would be like...whoa axl likes nirvana. AXL CAN I HAVE YOUR AUTOGRAPH. and axl would be like...whoa im a washed up talentless has-been and people still want my autograph? i should go buy nirvana stuff more often. and then axl would be out every damn day buying nirvana stuff and people would follow his lead...becuase people actually like him? and then nirvana would be even more commercialized and the true meaning of their music would be even more lost. it would be fucking anarchy, in the worst sense of the word.
3.this box set is comprised of three cds and a special dvd. thats it. this is kurts life, practically, and thats all people think it amounts to? some cds and a dvd? i mean...its more than my life could ever amount to but i feel that he was so much more than that. he spent YEARS recording all that stuff, and all it amounts to is three cds and a dvd? legal battles with ho-bag courtney love have been going on since kurts death to release this stuff, and this is all it amounts to? i dunno what im trying to say here...i mean i know its not ALL of kurts life, its just the music. but music is so fucking important i feel like it defines his life. and i feel like he was worth so much more than three cds and a dvd. and im also fucking pissed that the record companies are going to fucking commercialize this box set to noo end and capitolize as much as they fucking can cus money is all that matters right? fucking music industry. MUSIC IS NOT AN INDUSTRY DAMMIT. its fucking art. leave it that way.
so thats it. im gonna go listen to kurts life now. love to the best...you made my shitty day worth it.
anyways...that was wayy to personal for lj. so LEX and B you are the fucking best. you ALWAYS go out of your way to make me feel happy, and that really means more to me than you will ever know. i fucking love you guys.
well...now that i have the nirvana box set cus my friends are fucking awesome, there are three things that scare me about it:
1. kurt cobain would have hated it. HATED it. he would never want any sort of recognition or accolade for what he did. he never thought that he did anything. well...he didnt really do anything. he just created music, put what he felt into words. he just didnt realize that tons of people felt the exact same way and just couldnt verbalize it the way he could. you think he wanted to be called the fucking voice of the generation? fuck no. he hated that, and who could blame him? he didnt think he could fucking speak for himself, nevermind an entire generation. so yeah...he was a fucking genius, but he never could recognize that, and he didnt want other people to see that either. so yeah...he would have hated this.
2. this fucking box set is in every fucking cd store in the country, probably the world. this means anyone can just go and get it, not recognizing the true art and genius that it really is. fucking axl rose could go buy it and people would be like...whoa axl likes nirvana. AXL CAN I HAVE YOUR AUTOGRAPH. and axl would be like...whoa im a washed up talentless has-been and people still want my autograph? i should go buy nirvana stuff more often. and then axl would be out every damn day buying nirvana stuff and people would follow his lead...becuase people actually like him? and then nirvana would be even more commercialized and the true meaning of their music would be even more lost. it would be fucking anarchy, in the worst sense of the word.
3.this box set is comprised of three cds and a special dvd. thats it. this is kurts life, practically, and thats all people think it amounts to? some cds and a dvd? i mean...its more than my life could ever amount to but i feel that he was so much more than that. he spent YEARS recording all that stuff, and all it amounts to is three cds and a dvd? legal battles with ho-bag courtney love have been going on since kurts death to release this stuff, and this is all it amounts to? i dunno what im trying to say here...i mean i know its not ALL of kurts life, its just the music. but music is so fucking important i feel like it defines his life. and i feel like he was worth so much more than three cds and a dvd. and im also fucking pissed that the record companies are going to fucking commercialize this box set to noo end and capitolize as much as they fucking can cus money is all that matters right? fucking music industry. MUSIC IS NOT AN INDUSTRY DAMMIT. its fucking art. leave it that way.
so thats it. im gonna go listen to kurts life now. love to the best...you made my shitty day worth it.