Insomnia.
Can't sleep. Not at all. Paranoia. Worry. Stress.
I don't know why. I worry too much. Seems like maybe the pills make it worse than better. Bad thoughts. At least I'm not as suicidal as I was. I no longer have to restrain myself from not making that turn and letting my car go across the grass into the river. But, I don't know why.
You never really give me a reason to worry, except for that one night.
Your old words still cut into me and make me think.
Are you really mine?
Idk.
I watched you fall asleep last night. You always sleep so peacefully.
I wish I could.
Why can't I make my mind shut the fuck up?
Why do I worry about you and your decisions so much? It's really not my place to, but I still do.
I hate it.
I wish I could stop thinking so much.
Last cigarette.
Headache.
Fuck.
You made me fall for you, now I can't get you out of my head. I can't stop being so fucking paranoid.
I am a Jinx.
I am the reason why all my relationships fail.
I laugh at myself.
Lol.
I don't know why. I worry too much. Seems like maybe the pills make it worse than better. Bad thoughts. At least I'm not as suicidal as I was. I no longer have to restrain myself from not making that turn and letting my car go across the grass into the river. But, I don't know why.
You never really give me a reason to worry, except for that one night.
Your old words still cut into me and make me think.
Are you really mine?
Idk.
I watched you fall asleep last night. You always sleep so peacefully.
I wish I could.
Why can't I make my mind shut the fuck up?
Why do I worry about you and your decisions so much? It's really not my place to, but I still do.
I hate it.
I wish I could stop thinking so much.
Last cigarette.
Headache.
Fuck.
You made me fall for you, now I can't get you out of my head. I can't stop being so fucking paranoid.
I am a Jinx.
I am the reason why all my relationships fail.
I laugh at myself.
Lol.