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May 20, 2009 21:36

Training, training, training.

When will this rain stop?

Busy, busy, busy.

I feel myself getting more and more distant from people I used to know so well. On the other hand, I've never felt closer to my family than ever before. I guess I have a new perspective on life after REALLY leaving everything behind. I can't say that I'm all too disappointed over the entire thing, I have a lot more to learn on my own.

It's a bittersweet feeling. I have a handful of friends that I continue to keep in touch with on a semi-regular basis. I'm sure other people think of me, as I think of old friends, but I suppose one of the lessons you have to learn in life is how people drift away. I became a sailor and now I've set sail, in a metaphorical sense. I look back and I don't see the same familiar lands I that I was blessed to walk on. I've got a sea in front of me. It's not stormy (at least right now), and I think I things will go smoothly for the immediate future.

I guess when I read other people's journals and my own, it just gives me the nostalgic tug in my belly that comes with growing up (ha!) and people moving their own different ways. Shit, I call myself grown-up, yet I don't think I can say what I want to do 'when I grow up' in full confidence. Ain't that about a bitch.

Today in one of the many lectures I've had the joy of attending, we went over a pretty awesome concept. At least I thought it was cool: using humor to diffuse otherwise unbearably stressful moments. At the core was not taking oneself too seriously, stepping outside of yourself for a moment to grab a new perspective, and tackling the problem with a new focus. can't think of yourself as the center of the universe, then you put way too much weight on your shoulders.

I adopted this school of thought a while ago, and it's pretty cool to see it being implemented in something having to do with my job now. Pretty dang good life skill. What'd be the point of continuing a grind day in and day out if you can't be a little silly every once in a while?

I really need to try to write something moving in the near future, but every time I tell myself that it seems forced and unnatural.

Until next time, folks. <3
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