The mourning after
Dear Bettie,
How ya doin? Me? Eh, like always. I have been having this dream lately that has been really odd to me. It has been reacuring now for like 3 weeks and for what reason I dont know. I would love to explain it in detail in here but it is just wayyyyyyyyyy too personal to put in here. It makes me wake up very abrubtly and yesterday I woke up and busted my face on the wall and bled all over myself. AT 3 IN THE MORNING!!!! All I will say about ti is that it is a dream that is so realistic I can smell, taste touch, feel the wind on the neck, feel the dampness from her kiss on my cheek. I wake up from it and feel like my waking up is not reality but merely waking up in a dream. Kinda weird. I just dont know what to think of it. I feel it has some kind of strange message for me. But in all this time it is scaring me, I am actually happy. I wish that dream was reality sometimes. I wish that because it is a life in which I am with "her". It may be a dream, but only in this dream will I ever be with "her" at all. She is a Dream.Maybe this dream occured due to me seeing her not too long ago. But boy oh boy was she just as beautiful as ever. Her hair, her body, and OH GOD THOSE LIPS! She will never speak to me again, nor wanna look at me. That saddens me extremely. But that is life. If only she knew how sorry I am and how much I would love to just have one more chance. Who knows, from what I heard, that if you wish and wish enough for something, it will come true. I could spend the rest of my life with her. Ahhhhhhhh, what a wonderful life that would be.............
How ya doin? Me? Eh, like always. I have been having this dream lately that has been really odd to me. It has been reacuring now for like 3 weeks and for what reason I dont know. I would love to explain it in detail in here but it is just wayyyyyyyyyy too personal to put in here. It makes me wake up very abrubtly and yesterday I woke up and busted my face on the wall and bled all over myself. AT 3 IN THE MORNING!!!! All I will say about ti is that it is a dream that is so realistic I can smell, taste touch, feel the wind on the neck, feel the dampness from her kiss on my cheek. I wake up from it and feel like my waking up is not reality but merely waking up in a dream. Kinda weird. I just dont know what to think of it. I feel it has some kind of strange message for me. But in all this time it is scaring me, I am actually happy. I wish that dream was reality sometimes. I wish that because it is a life in which I am with "her". It may be a dream, but only in this dream will I ever be with "her" at all. She is a Dream.Maybe this dream occured due to me seeing her not too long ago. But boy oh boy was she just as beautiful as ever. Her hair, her body, and OH GOD THOSE LIPS! She will never speak to me again, nor wanna look at me. That saddens me extremely. But that is life. If only she knew how sorry I am and how much I would love to just have one more chance. Who knows, from what I heard, that if you wish and wish enough for something, it will come true. I could spend the rest of my life with her. Ahhhhhhhh, what a wonderful life that would be.............