Actually, as someone who's suffered from depression to the point of being forced to sign a 'I will not kill myself' contract with a therapist many years after the fact- you really do get scared of feeling better. In that state a person is extremely out of touch with 'the other side' of their emotions. Although the fact that she's writing about it says she's either distanced from any of her emotions or just grasping onto them for the attention... so I haven't got a clue. I for one never talked to anyone about my depression, not even 'omg 4 teh attentions" and only vaguely mentioned my suicidal tendancy to a friend- call it a plea in disguise. I'm not sure any of my closest friends knew I was depressed let alone suicidal. Even knowing the signs from being there I was shocked when a friend in college turned out to be suicidal, I found out after his accidental death. All of that is many many years behind me now. So, I donno.
Well, like I mention, I too have had my share of depression so I do have my knowledge of what you're talking about - even though I don't completely agree with it. It is strange to start feeling better after feeling incredibly low for a long periods, but scary? Also the way she makes it sounds - it's not the deal here. What I understood, she doesn't want to feel good for the art sake. Oh, I dunno XDD
I can understand why he'd feel that way about his depression periods and art. I've done it myself because I notice my artwork is more emotional and heartfelt... sometimes I wish the depression would stick around only for that :/ Or find some way to bottle that up and take a dose when needed.
I think I read what she wrote in a different way. I read it as her being dubious about actually feeling better. As if she didn't really believe it may be happening.
It was very strange to not feel depressed as I started getting better. I still go into tiny bouts of it, but that's mostly related to another issue I have been getting assistance with. :-/
I was rather upset when they made me sign a contract about not harming myself :-/ (doctors) because when I went for assistance I went over every emotional issue I've ever had so they could diagnose me.
And it is a little scary! For me it was because I'd been depressed and in less than stellar living conditions for so long that I'd forgotten what it was like to be happy, and had no idea where I was going.
I'm sorry that things are not panning well for getting help. We're facing the same issue here with a friend. Our county has a community counseling center, but they are overbooked and underfunded.
Hopefully the object of our worry will indeed go see someone and if they tell them they're just being a whiny teen they smarten up, and if there is a problem that they whole heartedly embrace a try to help themselves. Self diagnosing is not ok.
Oh, yeah, forgot :) When I was (finally) diagnosed (another thing I still don't like to talk about...) I went around to closer friends and family and explained that I had been diagnosed with it, apologized to many for my erratic behaviors and said that I was going to be working on it. And really only hold open conversations about it with three or four people, not including the therapist. I guess it's all just that we handle situations differently
I for one never talked to anyone about my depression, not even 'omg 4 teh attentions" and only vaguely mentioned my suicidal tendancy to a friend- call it a plea in disguise. I'm not sure any of my closest friends knew I was depressed let alone suicidal. Even knowing the signs from being there I was shocked when a friend in college turned out to be suicidal, I found out after his accidental death.
All of that is many many years behind me now. So, I donno.
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Oh, I dunno XDD
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It was very strange to not feel depressed as I started getting better. I still go into tiny bouts of it, but that's mostly related to another issue I have been getting assistance with. :-/
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And it is a little scary! For me it was because I'd been depressed and in less than stellar living conditions for so long that I'd forgotten what it was like to be happy, and had no idea where I was going.
I'm sorry that things are not panning well for getting help. We're facing the same issue here with a friend. Our county has a community counseling center, but they are overbooked and underfunded.
Hopefully the object of our worry will indeed go see someone and if they tell them they're just being a whiny teen they smarten up, and if there is a problem that they whole heartedly embrace a try to help themselves. Self diagnosing is not ok.
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When I was (finally) diagnosed (another thing I still don't like to talk about...) I went around to closer friends and family and explained that I had been diagnosed with it, apologized to many for my erratic behaviors and said that I was going to be working on it. And really only hold open conversations about it with three or four people, not including the therapist. I guess it's all just that we handle situations differently
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My depression is chemical so its hard to keep it in check. Just got to find the right meds/combo of meds.
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