So, I'm still alive. I've found that I'm not good at communicating, and in this regard, I'm not good at keeping up with people that I should keep up with. For example, someone who I would have considered my best friend at one time I just found his blog (Hi there
stnuke). This in addition to other realizations over the past few months made me realize that I need to be better at inter-personal communication. I think that I'm pretty good at it one-on-one and at a surface level (i.e. if I'm in a mood to, I can carry on pretty good small talk), but when I have to delve beneath the surface, I've found that I'm not an effective communicator (partially because I'm not sure how deep my personality goes, especially with introspection).
Anyway, I've recently been reading Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus and I feel dumb because I have to be told the things in that book instead of knowing them myself since they all seem obvious so far (I'm only starting chapter 3 I think). I often find myself irritated at myself for not realizing obvious things that I see without being told specifically about them.
Anyway, I don't think that I'm going to try to summarize the past several months because I know that I'll leave a lot out, and while I want to be a better communicator, I'm not sure that just trying to rehash a list of events really counts as "good" communication. I also think that maintaining "snobbery" about what consists as good communication is another detractor for communication.
Maybe I'm more complex than i realize.
Anyway, hopefully this will be the first of the new set of LJ entries that will keep you up to date on my life and my thoughts and it will also help me communicate more effectively.