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yah i started work, and i dont work again til monday because they(mcdonalds) already put the sceduale up for this week. i saw jodie hehe i love and miss her dearly. i think me and lauren will start hanging out a little more now because of reasons with her. i was so fucking dead last night and i had so much fucking homework and sitting in a room for 3 hrs signing papers knocked me out, jodie , i missed her call cuz my mom came in @ like 1030 and i was deffinatly dead. yah schools going, eh so so. i guess school is just school, ive been trying a bit, making sure i do all my homework at least, i dont really care what grades i get much, as long as i dont fail anything this year, thats my goal. well i have mnay goals like being skinny and OH so much more but this is just school related for now. i finally got a job and maybe soon i will be able to go to driving school, get a cheap car, or my moms old car and be able to drive around and now have to beg other people for rides, and i'll be able to get away from my house wen i need to.u know what i dont understand, is why im so stupid. hmm i dont understand a lot of things, this isnt just to do with me, but also with other people who r telling me about theire problems who i'd rather not name. If you like somebody so much and u like think u love them, why would they ever not givve you a chance, theres some reasons like just have been best friends 4e, or because you dont want to end up hurting that person because u dont like them the way you like them. i thought that i could go out with anyone to get my mind to be off of someone, but no matter how many guys i could go through, or how many hours, days, months passed. i feel the same way, like i cant look @ other guys and judge them because i have my heart to someone else ......hmm....i wont be able to do as much shit as usualy because i have to be all responsible and try to work. andrew isnt that pissed at me anymore. he thinks i was bascially talking shit about him even tho i wasnt at all but yah...he takes things way too wrong i guess. well basicaly life sucks
and my stomache hurts bye