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soo i haven't updated in a while...
i'm at a weird stage in my life.
i realized a lot of the stuff i do is stupid and does not reflect well on me as a person. and i decided to cut that stuff out of my life.
but why is it so hard?
i really struggle with it...it should be so easy to be like "oh this is screwing up my life. i need to stop." it's obvious, yett friends and my own weak will keep making me question it.
ah i don't know.
and whoa i need to stopp procrastinating.
i didn't read a heart of darkness :/
i still have a tonn of that packet to do.
aand i really really need to focus on studying for the sat.
like this is my future!
i'm not taking it seriously.
i just sleep all day.
who am i? what have i become??
ughhh sometimes, i hate myself.
i'm at a weird stage in my life.
i realized a lot of the stuff i do is stupid and does not reflect well on me as a person. and i decided to cut that stuff out of my life.
but why is it so hard?
i really struggle with it...it should be so easy to be like "oh this is screwing up my life. i need to stop." it's obvious, yett friends and my own weak will keep making me question it.
ah i don't know.
and whoa i need to stopp procrastinating.
i didn't read a heart of darkness :/
i still have a tonn of that packet to do.
aand i really really need to focus on studying for the sat.
like this is my future!
i'm not taking it seriously.
i just sleep all day.
who am i? what have i become??
ughhh sometimes, i hate myself.