MISSING: Myself.

[wrpdndprsd]

I miss myself terribly, I've come to the conclusion I'm no longer the person I was a year ago. I lost myself between October 1st and November 24th 2007. If you see me, please tell me I miss myself and I'd really like to go back to how it used to be

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[stfu_stephie]

yeah i kind of thought maybe there was more. but i just wasn't sure. i understand that there is nothing to do. i feel the same living where i live now. part of it is because there is nothing to do. and part of it is because i still haven't gotten use to this town and don't know how to get to places by myself. i've been depressed for a long, long time. i have meds for it but i stopped taking them because i'm forgetful. and because at one point i didn't want to rely on them. but at the end of the day they help so i need to get my ass back on them. the year before i started grade 12 i was on paxil which did fuck all. and then i got put on zoloft. stopped for a couple years but went back on them. and i have a big bottle of them sitting in my nightstand. but i highly recommend getting something to help. you probably won't need them forever but they will help you a lot at this point. i think tomorrow i will try to go back on mine. i really, really need them. between having no friends here, not being comfortable with my surroundings, not being able to find a job quickly as i would like and being overweight i have fallen into a huge hole that i can't get out of.

i think chicago would be a really, really awesome place for you. not only would there be tons to do. but you would be able to go to lots of shows. and most importantly you could have a future there...career wise. there are so many opportunities in a city like that. i think it would probably lift your spirits a bit and help you get out of your "rut".

your diet sounds awesome with the fact that it's helping you lose weight but if it's costing you that much money per week maybe you should try to find something as effective but cheaper. my mom went on atkins when i was 14 and lots a shit ton of weight but it was just far too expensive for her to keep up with.

go on a torrent spree with music if you haven't already. go on absolutepunk....i think they always have lists of new albums dropping. i'll make you a couple mix cds with my faves from the past few months.

[wrpdndprsd]

I can't stop my diet until like sometime in march. we agreed to like a 9 month thing and my parents paid for it, which was like 1200-1400? they guaranteed the weight loss, not sure what happens come march when I havent lost everything.