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Just checked the dates for the 2013 PCAT, and fuck me, the deadline for early application was the 17th, not the 31st like I thought. That means I'd have to pay the late fees if I still want to do the test in July. I could wait and take the test in September, but that's an awful long stretch for me to lose motivation and not study for it. Fuck, I am so angry at myself. I've been so out of it lately, and I know no small part of it is my work schedule.
My work schedule? Is bullshit. They have me flip-flopping between evenings and nights, sometimes within the same week, and it's destroying my life. Right now I'm sitting here at 6:24 a.m., wide awake and sleepless, despite the fact that I have to be at work in less than seven hours. I am exhausted. The stress of having to reset my sleep in less than a twenty-four hour period is just beyond me. It'll reset itself tonight when I come home beyond exhausted, but then I'll have to reset it AGAIN two days from now because she threw me on nights right after a stretch of evenings. I keep telling myself I just need to get through the month of March and it'll be better, but Christ almighty.
If it wasn't for the fact that nobody locally convenient is hiring, I'd seriously considering leaving. It's just such a toxic environment right now, and the hospital system I work for it just so corporatist and corrupt. It just represents everything that is blatantly wrong with healthcare in this country, and the fact that it's using "OBAMACARE!!" as an excuse to cut jobs left and right is just actively repulsive to me. No. There are plenty of ways in which the healthcare plan may adversely affect hospital systems, but this is not the real reason why the cuts are happening. Job cuts are happening because said hospital system decided to throw a bitchfit over [insert insurance company here] bought up and revitalized their largest competitor, so hospital system decided to drop their insurance entire, along with all of their patients whose care provided nearly 15-20% of their revenue. You would think being hauled before city legislation and threatened to have their non-profit status cut would scare them into behaving, but they're just that stupid.
I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I need to get out of this city, and the utter staleness of the environment I'm in, but I'm locked down by lease until September. It's an ugly feeling, and I don't like it.
My work schedule? Is bullshit. They have me flip-flopping between evenings and nights, sometimes within the same week, and it's destroying my life. Right now I'm sitting here at 6:24 a.m., wide awake and sleepless, despite the fact that I have to be at work in less than seven hours. I am exhausted. The stress of having to reset my sleep in less than a twenty-four hour period is just beyond me. It'll reset itself tonight when I come home beyond exhausted, but then I'll have to reset it AGAIN two days from now because she threw me on nights right after a stretch of evenings. I keep telling myself I just need to get through the month of March and it'll be better, but Christ almighty.
If it wasn't for the fact that nobody locally convenient is hiring, I'd seriously considering leaving. It's just such a toxic environment right now, and the hospital system I work for it just so corporatist and corrupt. It just represents everything that is blatantly wrong with healthcare in this country, and the fact that it's using "OBAMACARE!!" as an excuse to cut jobs left and right is just actively repulsive to me. No. There are plenty of ways in which the healthcare plan may adversely affect hospital systems, but this is not the real reason why the cuts are happening. Job cuts are happening because said hospital system decided to throw a bitchfit over [insert insurance company here] bought up and revitalized their largest competitor, so hospital system decided to drop their insurance entire, along with all of their patients whose care provided nearly 15-20% of their revenue. You would think being hauled before city legislation and threatened to have their non-profit status cut would scare them into behaving, but they're just that stupid.
I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I need to get out of this city, and the utter staleness of the environment I'm in, but I'm locked down by lease until September. It's an ugly feeling, and I don't like it.