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muddle oh my messy life. rain on me salt shaker girl, my little puddle.
i imagine i'll remember this part of my life forever.. what a mess. its strange because i have this new mix of chemicals swirling around in my head, so i am "able" to accept what comes at me, and supposedly i am better equipped. it doesn't quite feel like that.. i am here, living thru the bullshit.. so i guess its good that i haven't lost my mind or jumped off a building or something, i just wonder if (medicated) humans have a breaking point, will there come a time when i am drowning in the shit that i just give up? let it swallow me whole?
i am trying my hardest, and that is gods truth. i guess thats what i am good at.. trying really hard for things that no one a)cares about b)notices .
im sorry.. im just going on and on about nothing. blah.
i imagine i'll remember this part of my life forever.. what a mess. its strange because i have this new mix of chemicals swirling around in my head, so i am "able" to accept what comes at me, and supposedly i am better equipped. it doesn't quite feel like that.. i am here, living thru the bullshit.. so i guess its good that i haven't lost my mind or jumped off a building or something, i just wonder if (medicated) humans have a breaking point, will there come a time when i am drowning in the shit that i just give up? let it swallow me whole?
i am trying my hardest, and that is gods truth. i guess thats what i am good at.. trying really hard for things that no one a)cares about b)notices .
im sorry.. im just going on and on about nothing. blah.