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It's going to be another late night, I can feel it. What's worse is, I'm tired. I've been stuck like this for weeks. Every day just thinking "Collapse already, dammit." Every day around three I just go lay there in my room, just so I don't get yelled at. I stare at the ceiling for god knows how long, just trying to figure out what the hell is going on. My body feels heavy and my head seems to be swimming through a thick haze. When I finally get to sleep, it's the blackest sleep I've ever had. It's almost like I'm dreaming black, like I'm in a dream with absolutely no fucking light. It's the kind of sleep that when you wake up you see that you've flung everything off the bed. It's just you and a mattress. When I finally return to conciousness it feels like I've been beaten in my sleep. Everything aches. Sometimes I wonder how I did this to myself? How I got myself into this pattern is beyond me.
I've agreed to help rebuild my aunts fence in her backyard. I don't really want to do it, I'm too tired. Now that I think about it, it's probably not a good idea, but there's money in it.
I've agreed to help rebuild my aunts fence in her backyard. I don't really want to do it, I'm too tired. Now that I think about it, it's probably not a good idea, but there's money in it.