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I am horrible.
I have to many wants and it isn't fair to those around me.
I do my own thing at others expenses.
I have too much of a past to walk away from.
I just can't seem to let things go.
There are two sides to me...the side I am in now which I love and believe in.
and then the side I was in before where I can just do what I want and I could be all over the place...and be with everyone and be everywhere at once.
I feel like i am emotionally un availiable to the ones that are there for me the most. Im just lost and distant. I am cold hearted and mean.
I wish I could just relocate and dissapear however I know me, and I know I will still start to contact my past just to keep doors open. I wish I could just settle in and feel peace. And I just don't. It seems as though once I get what I want I just keep looking for more.
unfair.
I have to many wants and it isn't fair to those around me.
I do my own thing at others expenses.
I have too much of a past to walk away from.
I just can't seem to let things go.
There are two sides to me...the side I am in now which I love and believe in.
and then the side I was in before where I can just do what I want and I could be all over the place...and be with everyone and be everywhere at once.
I feel like i am emotionally un availiable to the ones that are there for me the most. Im just lost and distant. I am cold hearted and mean.
I wish I could just relocate and dissapear however I know me, and I know I will still start to contact my past just to keep doors open. I wish I could just settle in and feel peace. And I just don't. It seems as though once I get what I want I just keep looking for more.
unfair.