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[wrong_cow_girl]

im over it.

i feel like im starting to give up.

i dont know who i am anymore.

i wish i could just escape and start over.

i have school work and friends that keep me in one place.

and sometimes i wish they didn't

i feel like i will never grow to my full potential if i just keep sitting in the same spot forever.

i dont want to go to meetings anymore.

i dont want to do program anymore.

i dont want what most of those people have at 10-20 years clean.

i am ready to be called something other then addict.

i am ready to have a mature adult life with responsibility on myself and not on the program.

so what next?

i have no idea.