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[wrob687]

i dont know what's happening with me...

i've become wound up in making all things superficial...and gilded.

i don't know what my dreams are anymore. i don't even know how to begin my future...

things that had used to make me happy, they don't make me happy anymore...they make me depressed.

i say i want something for my future...but i never go for it...i don't know what to reach for...

it seems that i'm not making any of the decisions i choose...like i'm possessed or something.

i have nothing that i look forward to. i don't even know if there is anything to look forward to again.

i'm falling. and i dont know where to grab on. i'm scared.

this life...it's not all happiness...

i haven't been truly happy in a long time... i take things, small things, and use them to make me happy...but that happiness doesn't last

i guess that way, if i set my goals high, and don't achieve them, i won't be so disappointed.

i'm so ready to get out of this life...it's not fun anymore.

i'm not suicidal, at all...don't even worry...

i just look forward to death...

...a death that more recently i've become more aware of...

i'm losing faith...but i don't want to...i want jesus...but then again..it's like i don't...

i need prayer...

prayer...
prayer...
prayer...

help me.