okay enough!
enough, enough !, enough with me and my falseness becuase i'm tired of acting like i'm hapy and i'm really really really NOT
okay i know for a fact that my writing sucks, does one want to know why my wiriting sucks, well i don't care one is going to listen to my reasoning any way.
1.) I can't get anyone every to read it, everyone is always so busy (durring summer) and when i do get people to read it all my hopes go clashing down becuase it's confussing. Well it's confussing becuase my wiriting it's blunt! I use methaphore for a lot of things and it really irrates me when people don't get that, but that isn't there fault its all mine. Mine. Mine. Mine.Mine.Mine!
2.) If i would acutaly not hold up a minimal stnadard of how many pages i would need to write THERE WOULD BE NO STORY AT ALL i'm not joking that's why i have to write for pages becuase i cannot elabroate other wise. Everyone else is good at this and after six years of this i cannot do it still. I hate it, i hate myself, and i hate everything that has to do with writing at the moment. I cannot make a proper story like everyone else in the word, and when i try i suck and it's confusing. What a grand day for us all! So happy-making and gleeful and YAY. enough.
3.) I give up. I give up on trying to have good grammer becuase when i do i just make eveything worse. Everything, i cannot do anything right with grammer so i should just stop even trying to do anything it. I should just stop writing in genral becuase that's how much i suck anyway. Forget about what i really want in life and do what i don't want to, maybe do some math. Yeah, math can be soothing. But i'm not good at math, i'm not good at anything so who cares.
4.) Spelling. Now i have thought i have gotten better at this, but i know i haven't. I suck at everything- more so math- and i shouldn't even try this. It even caused me to get "held back" in first grade, so i should know by now that spelling is lost to me and i shouldn't even be trying with it. I don't know about math, but i wasn't very good at that either, probably another reason i was "held back" in the first place. "Held back" is just a nice phrase for " you suck at everything, so we are going to do this so you don't fail and suck at everything." well it didn't help for me becuase i still fail and suck at everything! Even driving test i suck at. I fail! I fail majorily. Smeyer can write better than me. Everyone can, why do i even try.
5.) The nonplot of my stoires. There is no plot what am saying in the earlier post that there is a plot. There isn't, and i don't think i'll ever be able to make a creative intrecate plot that actually works instead of the horrible things i call plot. I hae them; i hate then all. I... can't say anymore.
6.) My charecters, they all are mary-sues. All of them, i don't care what one says they all are and stupid and irraiting and don't make sence most the time and aren't relatible at all, and they all should just die. I hate every charecter that i have ever writen becuase they are all stupid and don't make sence and are too saphsiticated for their age or too emo or too mean.
7.) Decription. Apparently my decription sucks and one can't use hyperpoles on decription, can't be dramatic, and can't have fun. No, i should have known that but i guess i suck at everything so i couldn't have. The one thing i thought i was good at, well i suck at it more now!
8.) What am i kidding i have no eight but i suck! and i'm never writing again, i quit, i'm going to burn eveything or shred it- throw away the jumpdrives and move on. i hate what i write, and it seems that everyone else does too.