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Well, no one asked what 'it' was. But that's okay, because I'm going to post it anyway -- neener neener.
I meant to do something yesterday... but I did it today, so I can still tell you today, so it all works out.
I ended up just asking him if he liked me too -- because I wanted to hear it from him, even though I was almost certain. It's funny how much courage it took. But once I started, it was easy, because it's not as if I could stop in the middle. It doesn't seem like that much, but it was great to be able to do it. To know I had the guts.
I got the answer I expected -- yes, but he's moving in a month, so...
I dunno. I figure I'll miss him either way, probably just as much, but... I like him a lot, and I don't want to miss out on what could happen because I don't want it to hurt more when he leaves. I'm not afraid of it hurting. I know it's coming, I can deal. If I have to initiate, that's fine. I want to know I can do it. And if I do and he still isn't into it because he's moving, I respect that... but I do have to do it once.
Because I really really want to.
And because I want to know that I can -- but that's just a minor thing. Mostly, I just really want to do it because I like him.
I actually thought that question today... "It's great that he likes me back, but why?" Haha. I can't help thinking it, I guess, but I'd never ask, because it's not like I could answer it if someone I liked asked me that. It just happens. There are some things you know, but they can be traits in people you know but don't like too.
I need to sleep. Full day tomorrow. Up early, shots (no big deal... I got a bar through my ear, what's a needle gonna do to me?), and then hanging out with Yuka and Egan because Yuka won't be grounded anymore. Yay! I missed her even though I saw her at work and talked to her on the phone some. She is my Yukanana.
I miss Aze too, didn't get to see her this weekend. Lame. But she's out of school after this week, so we'll figure something out.
Okay, g'night.
I meant to do something yesterday... but I did it today, so I can still tell you today, so it all works out.
I ended up just asking him if he liked me too -- because I wanted to hear it from him, even though I was almost certain. It's funny how much courage it took. But once I started, it was easy, because it's not as if I could stop in the middle. It doesn't seem like that much, but it was great to be able to do it. To know I had the guts.
I got the answer I expected -- yes, but he's moving in a month, so...
I dunno. I figure I'll miss him either way, probably just as much, but... I like him a lot, and I don't want to miss out on what could happen because I don't want it to hurt more when he leaves. I'm not afraid of it hurting. I know it's coming, I can deal. If I have to initiate, that's fine. I want to know I can do it. And if I do and he still isn't into it because he's moving, I respect that... but I do have to do it once.
Because I really really want to.
And because I want to know that I can -- but that's just a minor thing. Mostly, I just really want to do it because I like him.
I actually thought that question today... "It's great that he likes me back, but why?" Haha. I can't help thinking it, I guess, but I'd never ask, because it's not like I could answer it if someone I liked asked me that. It just happens. There are some things you know, but they can be traits in people you know but don't like too.
I need to sleep. Full day tomorrow. Up early, shots (no big deal... I got a bar through my ear, what's a needle gonna do to me?), and then hanging out with Yuka and Egan because Yuka won't be grounded anymore. Yay! I missed her even though I saw her at work and talked to her on the phone some. She is my Yukanana.
I miss Aze too, didn't get to see her this weekend. Lame. But she's out of school after this week, so we'll figure something out.
Okay, g'night.