LOVE LETTER TO _ETC
Dearcookleta_etc(and just the cookleta fandom in general),
When I ventured into this fandom, I had no idea it would affect my life in the best possible way. First of all, no one and I mean no one in my real life understands how I can love someone like David Archuleta to the ends of the world and they don't have a clue about my part-time hobby of writing gay porn. Or even supporting gay porn - or just homosexuality in general. It's left me in a suffocating box for the longest time, hiding my writing from everyone I know because I knew they would never approve and it just...it crippled my self esteem. Writing for the HP fandom helped me fix that, a little, but writing here? For you guys? I'm starting to believe that what I'm doing - writing and just being myself - is worthwhile.
I never believed that I could meet people like you, who understood what I felt, who joined when I flailed and who let me cry just simply because David sang (and knowing that you guys cry too, whenever your favorite does something awesome). I feel so blessed and honored to have met you guys.
You've made me cry, made me laugh, made me flail, made me giggle through the day. You cheered me on when I was down and showered me with Archie things.
Then you showed me love at the LovePost even if I wasn't there...and the things you guys said about me made me cry because no one, no one has ever said those things about me. Not my parents, my boyfriend or my RL friends. Just you guys and I'm just...you guys make me happy to be me.
And I'm so touched that all of you mentioned my Archie stanning as one of the things you find adorable because there are times when I fear that I'm way overboard and should tone it down a little. But you guys get it, don't you?
I am so grateful that I delurked during the APs. It was the best decision I ever made. I've got my muse permanently back (I hope), and I've made friends with some of the most awesome people around the world. We do rewatches and burn through discussion posts in a matter of days and we love and support each other and flail together for all those moments that are made out of UTTER EPIC.
I feel like I'm part of a family, a family full of people who are different yet so alike, who love each other and are not afraid to show it.
So thank you, really, from the bottom of my heart. I love you guys: Kary, Kirsten, Julia, Megan, Molly, Jessica, Lisa, Brandi, Lexee, Kim, Jay, Frack, Inna, Ania, Alec, Melody and to everybody else. Seriously. I often say these words but I also mean them every single time.
When I ventured into this fandom, I had no idea it would affect my life in the best possible way. First of all, no one and I mean no one in my real life understands how I can love someone like David Archuleta to the ends of the world and they don't have a clue about my part-time hobby of writing gay porn. Or even supporting gay porn - or just homosexuality in general. It's left me in a suffocating box for the longest time, hiding my writing from everyone I know because I knew they would never approve and it just...it crippled my self esteem. Writing for the HP fandom helped me fix that, a little, but writing here? For you guys? I'm starting to believe that what I'm doing - writing and just being myself - is worthwhile.
I never believed that I could meet people like you, who understood what I felt, who joined when I flailed and who let me cry just simply because David sang (and knowing that you guys cry too, whenever your favorite does something awesome). I feel so blessed and honored to have met you guys.
You've made me cry, made me laugh, made me flail, made me giggle through the day. You cheered me on when I was down and showered me with Archie things.
Then you showed me love at the LovePost even if I wasn't there...and the things you guys said about me made me cry because no one, no one has ever said those things about me. Not my parents, my boyfriend or my RL friends. Just you guys and I'm just...you guys make me happy to be me.
And I'm so touched that all of you mentioned my Archie stanning as one of the things you find adorable because there are times when I fear that I'm way overboard and should tone it down a little. But you guys get it, don't you?
I am so grateful that I delurked during the APs. It was the best decision I ever made. I've got my muse permanently back (I hope), and I've made friends with some of the most awesome people around the world. We do rewatches and burn through discussion posts in a matter of days and we love and support each other and flail together for all those moments that are made out of UTTER EPIC.
I feel like I'm part of a family, a family full of people who are different yet so alike, who love each other and are not afraid to show it.
So thank you, really, from the bottom of my heart. I love you guys: Kary, Kirsten, Julia, Megan, Molly, Jessica, Lisa, Brandi, Lexee, Kim, Jay, Frack, Inna, Ania, Alec, Melody and to everybody else. Seriously. I often say these words but I also mean them every single time.
