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[writingonmyskin]

that night i held
that pillow and slept
as if it were you
i was wrapping my arms around
right around your waist
like every night
the year before
but when i woke
in the same way
the same shape
there was no
hair in my face
i felt so out of place
no back to tickle
or legs to rub against
i held that pillow so tight
it's probably a good thing
you wouldn't have been able to breathe
as tight as i squeezed
that night i held
that pillow and slept
my body ached from
the hours i wept
exhaustion took over
and i didn't move a muscle
but fell asleep
against my will
and didn't dream
about a single thing
not a thought crossed
nor an image seen
until i woke
and it was a pillow
sleeping next to me