america is obese; i am no exception.
today was alright. it's been three years without jason. usually i'd write something to magnify the situation, but i just dont feel like it.
he was an amazing person that did not deserve to die. his death made me question christ and my faith, and i went through some really bad times. but i pulled out stronger than ever, and am now confident that he is up there smiling down on me.
sometimes i can still feel his hand in mine. it doesn't freak me out, it relieves me.
it was also my fathers birthday. me and eddie went there and i could only stand about 20 minutes of it, so we left. it's really cute how pathetic it has become. i dont blame Nic or even my Dad, i blame myself. I am not tolerant to them anymore. The second they start up, I run away. but i really don't really see that as a bad thing. I think its better to run away from a situation that makes you feel bad then to stick around. Sticking around always ends in worse things...things that don't help.
I actually did my homework tonight, i just got done. Eddie is seriously passed out on my bed. My bed is the coolest and can make anyone fall asleep. Actually its just my presence, i am boring like that. or maybe its how he put on discovery health..its this show about the development of babies, sorta interesting, sorta not. but whatever, the point is hes sleeping and im not.
this babies name is Nathaniel, how cute. i hope no one starts calling him Cid...that could scar a person.
If this doesnt make any sense im sorry im really tired and still not feeling well. I haven't thrown up today though. thats a plus. it sucks how i get sick all the time. i feel bad for my husband, he's always going to have to take care of me and crap.
i think eddies awake...im going to go bombard him now.
<3jessica.
he was an amazing person that did not deserve to die. his death made me question christ and my faith, and i went through some really bad times. but i pulled out stronger than ever, and am now confident that he is up there smiling down on me.
sometimes i can still feel his hand in mine. it doesn't freak me out, it relieves me.
it was also my fathers birthday. me and eddie went there and i could only stand about 20 minutes of it, so we left. it's really cute how pathetic it has become. i dont blame Nic or even my Dad, i blame myself. I am not tolerant to them anymore. The second they start up, I run away. but i really don't really see that as a bad thing. I think its better to run away from a situation that makes you feel bad then to stick around. Sticking around always ends in worse things...things that don't help.
I actually did my homework tonight, i just got done. Eddie is seriously passed out on my bed. My bed is the coolest and can make anyone fall asleep. Actually its just my presence, i am boring like that. or maybe its how he put on discovery health..its this show about the development of babies, sorta interesting, sorta not. but whatever, the point is hes sleeping and im not.
this babies name is Nathaniel, how cute. i hope no one starts calling him Cid...that could scar a person.
If this doesnt make any sense im sorry im really tired and still not feeling well. I haven't thrown up today though. thats a plus. it sucks how i get sick all the time. i feel bad for my husband, he's always going to have to take care of me and crap.
i think eddies awake...im going to go bombard him now.
<3jessica.