Airing dirty laundry
I feel like a doormat. I have done everything in my power to empty ABSOLUTELY FUCKING EVERYTHING from my schedule from Dec 7- Jan 2. HE on the other hand seems to be filling it up even more. I have put so many things off so that I could spend as much time with him as possible. Why? Because I thought it was the fucking right thing to do.
This is fucking Rigoddamndiculous.
"I am busy doing that all day. I am busy doing this all night." Why is this irritating me? Because every fucking time I say something, anything, that is not happy I hear things like, "I feel like I am always doing something wrong and that I can't ever please you." Well guess what? You can. Just put a little effort into it. I shouldn't have to spell everything out for you. I shouldn't have to hold your hand.
Things to do tomorrow for my sanity.
1. The cell will be off once I make plans
2. Mail Agent AFTRA and contract papers
3. E-mail KAT RAMSBURG about audition this Saturday. YOU ARE GOING AND DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT GIVING IT UP!
4. Clean apartment
5. Print Resume
6. Start studying for Soc of Sex
7. See about going to a movie...Brokeback?...WHERE IS THIS PLAYING? ANYONE!?
8. Shower at some point...hopefully before my first midterm.
9. Feel good about self.
10. Sleep and not even care that I have other things to worry about.
11. Be with friends.
12. Stop thinking.
This is fucking Rigoddamndiculous.
"I am busy doing that all day. I am busy doing this all night." Why is this irritating me? Because every fucking time I say something, anything, that is not happy I hear things like, "I feel like I am always doing something wrong and that I can't ever please you." Well guess what? You can. Just put a little effort into it. I shouldn't have to spell everything out for you. I shouldn't have to hold your hand.
Things to do tomorrow for my sanity.
1. The cell will be off once I make plans
2. Mail Agent AFTRA and contract papers
3. E-mail KAT RAMSBURG about audition this Saturday. YOU ARE GOING AND DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT GIVING IT UP!
4. Clean apartment
5. Print Resume
6. Start studying for Soc of Sex
7. See about going to a movie...Brokeback?...WHERE IS THIS PLAYING? ANYONE!?
8. Shower at some point...hopefully before my first midterm.
9. Feel good about self.
10. Sleep and not even care that I have other things to worry about.
11. Be with friends.
12. Stop thinking.