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It was all a lie... It hurts too much to describe, but it feels as if my soul was laid bare & then scrapped with a dull blade. For 9 months I held hope & dreamed and wondered, but now I know it was all a lie. Tomorrow will be the last of it. I'll go to my staff meeting, meet no one & that'll be it. I think I'm ugly. Men are not attracted to me. I will be alone forever. The pain & shame & anger blend until I'm filled. There is no more hope to be found.