Forgive the self-pitying post
Why do people get into a relationship knowing there's more than a small chance (meaning, it's probably a freakin' big chance) that it's not going to end well? I don't get it. I've been feeling so awful for a week and a half now and I don't know when it's going to get better.
The thing is, I completely understand what happened. And it wasn't just one person's fault. I know where I went wrong just as much as I know where he went wrong. I really really really wanted it to work. I thought it would. I even know that we get each other, and we make so much sense together. But right now, all I feel is exasperation and pain.
I don't understand it. All I've wanted is to find someone who understands me, someone I love, and someone with who I can raise a family. Why isn't it happening?
I have this tightness in my chest and it won't go away. I just want it to go away. Now, please.
The thing is, I completely understand what happened. And it wasn't just one person's fault. I know where I went wrong just as much as I know where he went wrong. I really really really wanted it to work. I thought it would. I even know that we get each other, and we make so much sense together. But right now, all I feel is exasperation and pain.
I don't understand it. All I've wanted is to find someone who understands me, someone I love, and someone with who I can raise a family. Why isn't it happening?
I have this tightness in my chest and it won't go away. I just want it to go away. Now, please.