Ha Ha, Fate, very funny
I was right. My friend, Gary, (and may I stress FRIEND) has a crush on me. I was talking to him and he told me he was coming to KS end of April/beginning of May and he told me he wanted to take me to dinner. He wanted to take me on a date. I don't like him like that at all. Why is it the first guy who shows even a minute amount of interest doesn't interest me at all. I just kinda stayed quiet and and laughed awkwardly. He told me to think about it cause he knew he'd think about it a lot. This guy just broke up with his girlfriend and i'm the only female he talks to. I know he's never not had a girlfriend in like 3 or 4 years, so even if i was interested i still thinks he needs to be single for a while or something, but though i'm used to being rejected i've never had to do the rejecting. I just really don't feel anything for him . . . at all. Grrr. i wanted a guy to like me, now fate has laughed in my face again by putting me in this position. i have fallen in love, been rejected, now i'm faced with rejecting someone, and yet i've never even been on one date. only me, only me. God is having a good laugh right now. He's a nice enough guy, but not anyone I could see romantically. I try to be nice, and rejecting people, telling someone no is soooo hard for me. I feel so bad when I have to tell someone no, but I'm gonna have to tell him that it is just friends. Period. I mean I want someone, to hold, to laugh with, to love, but I know he's not a person I want to do those things with. God, I feel so bad. Life, ya know? Gotta be difficult doesn't it?