When I go to sleep, I wish so hard that I dont ever wake up

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Im so unbelievably depressed. Why am I telling this to a stupid internet journal? Oh yeah, because I have nobody to talk to. I feel very alone and alienated. Come February, Im really not going to have anybody to talk to. I love Matt so much, but sometimes I really cant deal with the shit. I dont care anymore. :(