F.M.L.
So my week hasn't been the best of weeks. First my half-sister makes fun of my new hair-cut on her AIM status and it's been up for, well, since I got the cut which is almost two weeks ago now. Then Monday I find out the person I'm falling for over the internet is actually married but doesn't give out that kind of personal information on the internet so ya know, I felt foolish. But we're cool, so it's okay :) Tuesday my kidney pain comes back. Tuesday night I feel sick to my stomach, which has stayed with me all this time; coming and going, just like the kidney pain. Then Wednesday/Thursday I get in a fight with... (well I'm just going to say it b/c she commented on the rant post and made it obvious who I was angry at....) prettyzombiegrl and she deletes me from everything, which, honestly, made me cry. Pretty sure I have Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder because the way I feel when I'm PMS'ing is so not normal. The last time I got in a fight with prettyzombiegrl was the week before my period, just like now. One of the signs that it's PMDD and not PMS is that the emotional symptoms affect your relationships with people. Well, hello!
So what happens next? Well, the tooth I had the surgery for last October gets a little wiggly this weekend. Like, I bite in to things and one side kind of pops out of place and I have to keep popping it back in. But it's so sensitive that just biting into bread would make it happen. Mom was a little freaked thinking that the surgery didn't work even though the doctor told us just in March that the bone had filled in nicely and what-not. So today I'm eating a bagel and every time I take a bite, I have to pop my tooth back in place. That is, until it BREAKS OFF. Srsly. Right up the middle. Now this is in one of my front top teeth so now I have this nice gap between my teeth and look like some hillbilly or something. Which I probably am a little bit, but not like this! So my mom's going to call the dentist as soon as they open tomorrow. I just hope that they'll put a cap on it and not have me go back to the surgeon and have it removed and have to get an implant. Cuz that would suck and is so much more costly and this is really something we don't need during the mist of buying a house and packing and whatever.
On a brighter side, I get to see the kidney specialist on Tuesday. Just two more days. I'm positively excited for this because maybe someone will finally be able to figure out this "kidney sand" crap and make it stop hurting permanently, ya know? That would be great. I'd finally be able to stop worrying that the pain will come back.... like it has in the past and has again now. I went, like, three or four weeks without pain and now it's back. Yay. *sarcasm*
So anyway, that's why this whole post is entitled FML. Basically anything that could go wrong, has gone wrong. So ya know, I'm waiting for something else to happen. Something worse. Maybe the kidney doctor will say I need my kidney removed or something. I don't know. I'm actually not all that opposed to having that done though if it meant I wouldn't hurt anymore. But whatever. This is my life at the moment. It's crazy and it sucks and there's only a little bit of good thrown in which isn't enough for me at the moment with the way the weather has been so rainy and affecting my emotional state.
Well, that's it. That's what's up. Not as bad as it could be, but feels like it couldn't get worse. I'm not sure there's much more I can take at this point. I'm just so exhausted, literally. I sleep all day and all night. It mostly sucks. But yeah.....
So what happens next? Well, the tooth I had the surgery for last October gets a little wiggly this weekend. Like, I bite in to things and one side kind of pops out of place and I have to keep popping it back in. But it's so sensitive that just biting into bread would make it happen. Mom was a little freaked thinking that the surgery didn't work even though the doctor told us just in March that the bone had filled in nicely and what-not. So today I'm eating a bagel and every time I take a bite, I have to pop my tooth back in place. That is, until it BREAKS OFF. Srsly. Right up the middle. Now this is in one of my front top teeth so now I have this nice gap between my teeth and look like some hillbilly or something. Which I probably am a little bit, but not like this! So my mom's going to call the dentist as soon as they open tomorrow. I just hope that they'll put a cap on it and not have me go back to the surgeon and have it removed and have to get an implant. Cuz that would suck and is so much more costly and this is really something we don't need during the mist of buying a house and packing and whatever.
On a brighter side, I get to see the kidney specialist on Tuesday. Just two more days. I'm positively excited for this because maybe someone will finally be able to figure out this "kidney sand" crap and make it stop hurting permanently, ya know? That would be great. I'd finally be able to stop worrying that the pain will come back.... like it has in the past and has again now. I went, like, three or four weeks without pain and now it's back. Yay. *sarcasm*
So anyway, that's why this whole post is entitled FML. Basically anything that could go wrong, has gone wrong. So ya know, I'm waiting for something else to happen. Something worse. Maybe the kidney doctor will say I need my kidney removed or something. I don't know. I'm actually not all that opposed to having that done though if it meant I wouldn't hurt anymore. But whatever. This is my life at the moment. It's crazy and it sucks and there's only a little bit of good thrown in which isn't enough for me at the moment with the way the weather has been so rainy and affecting my emotional state.
Well, that's it. That's what's up. Not as bad as it could be, but feels like it couldn't get worse. I'm not sure there's much more I can take at this point. I'm just so exhausted, literally. I sleep all day and all night. It mostly sucks. But yeah.....