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I must be stupid.
everytime i go to one of these practices im doomed for humiliiation. its not that i think im bad or know that i am or at least before practice i don't. it's hot sticky and appears to be just a waste of my time. i never seem to improve. my passes are wrong, my timing is off. im too slow. coming home makes it even worse a day. being criticesed by people you don't know is one thing, but being criticised by people you do know is another. why would my parents, off all people take it to the next level. okay so im bad at soccer but why must it be added that i am so because i'm "out of shape" I'm "gaining weight" why cabn't they do anything to help me.
what fo you do when your mother calls you stupid and your father ca;lls you fat?????
my father doesn't actually say i'm fay but i knoe he wants to. he says everything but. i can't have a snack in front of him without being told to "watch it."and then whenever i do something that i shouldn't my mom says to me "i thought you were smart samamtha, but i guess you're not. you're pretty stupid actually"
and then i get things friends from my friends telling me not to believe them, but it's just not that simple. if they love me and they want wants best for me, is ripping my self image into tatters what's best??? i don't know who to believe anymore, especially myself.
wishing you were here.
sam
everytime i go to one of these practices im doomed for humiliiation. its not that i think im bad or know that i am or at least before practice i don't. it's hot sticky and appears to be just a waste of my time. i never seem to improve. my passes are wrong, my timing is off. im too slow. coming home makes it even worse a day. being criticesed by people you don't know is one thing, but being criticised by people you do know is another. why would my parents, off all people take it to the next level. okay so im bad at soccer but why must it be added that i am so because i'm "out of shape" I'm "gaining weight" why cabn't they do anything to help me.
what fo you do when your mother calls you stupid and your father ca;lls you fat?????
my father doesn't actually say i'm fay but i knoe he wants to. he says everything but. i can't have a snack in front of him without being told to "watch it."and then whenever i do something that i shouldn't my mom says to me "i thought you were smart samamtha, but i guess you're not. you're pretty stupid actually"
and then i get things friends from my friends telling me not to believe them, but it's just not that simple. if they love me and they want wants best for me, is ripping my self image into tatters what's best??? i don't know who to believe anymore, especially myself.
wishing you were here.
sam