An update

Oct 28, 2016 11:32

I can't believe it's October 28th already. This month has absolutely flown by... it's kind of surreal that it's already the end of the month. Usually I'd have a Halloween fic ready to be posted but not sure if I'll be able to do that this year. I'm still at the struggle point - I have ideas, daydreams, and I can get things started but finishing is the issue. I will try to get a Halloween fic out. Won't have time tonight and I probably won't tomorrow, but I have Sunday and Monday off of work so I should be able to do a little writeathon and try to get something done.

I've been super behind on reading anyone's fics. I need to get caught up. Maybe next week I'll be able to do that.

Almost two weeks ago, Ollie came to stay with me and my parents because my sister just can't give him the attention/activity/training that he needs. It's been nice to have Ollie back and he's been super snuggly with me. He and Callum are having a blast racing around and playing all the time. I was feeling super depressed last night

I feel like I'm falling into a pattern again. I quit a job at the end of September last year because A) it was killing my hands/wrists and B) I was absolutely miserable working there. I don't exactly like the job I have now, but I like my coworkers and it is nice to have some cash. However my hand/wrist problems have gotten significantly worse in the last month. I started there in July and as of September I've been having to wear my braces during certain shifts. Now I have to wear them whenever I work because if I have them off, I get burny pins and needles feelings or pains. And if I'm writing in my diary or my notebook I'll get that feeling all the way up to my shoulder if I write too long. It's just a mess. I have a doctor's appointment next Tuesday so I'm hoping I'll get some ideas about treatment or what I should be doing next. I'm tentatively planning on leaving my job as of November 15th. I don't want to give up my paychecks, even though it's just minimal wage so the pay is negligible. But I do need to improve my hands. And if I do leave that'll give me more time to go to the career center at my old university and try to figure things out. So there's just a lot to think about.

Also... I'm feeling horribly lost and overwhelmed about what to do with my life. This has been my issue ever since I decided I would leave English Club in Japan and come back home to restart. 2015 was an absolutely awful year and I've had plenty of struggles in 2016 too. I'd hoped to be able to go back to Japan as an ALT in either 2016 or 2017, but both have been impossible due to limited finances. I'm just... tired of feeling so lost and uncertain about what to do. I'm now contemplating joining the air force (which is what my dad did when he was 20 because he didn't know what to do with his life either) and since I have a degree I could, if I got in, go in as an officer.

Well anyway lots of rambling but I am still around. Just haven't been able to get anything done. Even though I have MiA and San glaring at me. And I've resurrected a part of my vampire series I hadn't planned to finish, but it's Nocturnal Bloodlust (and eventually Hiro once Cazqui gets his fangs in him).

At least Lycaon is back! I was so happy to read that announcement and then that Ryoga and Tsurugi have teamed up to form a new band. I do wonder if Sadie will ever come back from a hiatus now that Mao, Mizuki, and Tsurugi are in alternate bands but I guess we'll have to wait and see. I'm hoping Ryoga's new band will be just as close with DIAURA and Mejibray so we can see our three vocalists back together again.

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