Time flies
It's been almost a month since my last entry. I've done a little writing though it's on scenes or for later stories in the ghost series. I just don't have the creative drive to write lately since I'm still unemployed, still can't get a fucking job, and it's really depressing. What's the point of going to college, taking out thousands upon thousands of dollars in loans, and then being unable to get a job after graduating? I can't even get a fucking retail job. 95% of my applications are ignored, whenever I do get an interview it's quickly met with a rejection. So basically I feel worthless and a huge burden on my parents which makes it difficult for me to write or do anything enjoyable aside from reading Marvel fanfics and watching stuff on Netflix. Which makes me feel worse because I should be jobhunting. Ugh.
Also dealing with my usual issue when I come back from Japan: Do I risk being unhappy with my living situation, school/work, and city just to be back in a country I enjoy? Because of that I've been distancing myself from VK and the fandoms in general. It's not that I'm tired of the music. I love it. I still love my bands. But I don't want to make the same mistakes again so I'm hoping this clears my head somewhat. I don't know.
I've made a goal to finish "To Love a Vampire" this summer. I'm tired of it lurking around my hardrive. I wish I'd finished it already back when I was still so passionate about D and the fandom. I was in Japan when they went on hiatus and that month had basically been a month devoted to D. I went to two lives and two instores, met other D fans. Then they went on hiatus and I was going to Royz and Mejibray lives. Mejibray and Nocturnal Bloodlust are the only bands I'm even interested in writing right now because they're the ones I listen to most. I should just give up on the vampires but there's that end arc I really want to get to. I have four or five one-shots to finish then I can work on the end arc and have that done. There are other characters in the vampire universe to explore... I came up with a backstory for Koichi and Tsuzuku, MiA and Hakuei have their story that I started writing. Subaru and Ryoga are supposed to show up. I just don't know if I'll get to it or not.
The ghost series is something I've been struggling with. The part I'm working on now is taking me a while to piece together and fix up and I'm still working on ideas for the next part of the series. I'm thinking I'll just wait until each arc is finished then do a weekly posting so that gives me some time to catch up on the next part. I have the timeline for that one planned, there are three arcs and I have my ending figured out. I've written it in my head plenty of times and will problably put it to keyboard soon enough.
Anyway, just a bunch of rambling. Once I can fix my stupid life I hope to be around more. Finish my last two big projects with fanfic before I quit like I've been telling myself I'll do for years. After To Love a Vampire and Paranormal Case Files, no more from me. I've got original work calling me. I only started doing fanfic because I had severe writer's block anyway.
Also dealing with my usual issue when I come back from Japan: Do I risk being unhappy with my living situation, school/work, and city just to be back in a country I enjoy? Because of that I've been distancing myself from VK and the fandoms in general. It's not that I'm tired of the music. I love it. I still love my bands. But I don't want to make the same mistakes again so I'm hoping this clears my head somewhat. I don't know.
I've made a goal to finish "To Love a Vampire" this summer. I'm tired of it lurking around my hardrive. I wish I'd finished it already back when I was still so passionate about D and the fandom. I was in Japan when they went on hiatus and that month had basically been a month devoted to D. I went to two lives and two instores, met other D fans. Then they went on hiatus and I was going to Royz and Mejibray lives. Mejibray and Nocturnal Bloodlust are the only bands I'm even interested in writing right now because they're the ones I listen to most. I should just give up on the vampires but there's that end arc I really want to get to. I have four or five one-shots to finish then I can work on the end arc and have that done. There are other characters in the vampire universe to explore... I came up with a backstory for Koichi and Tsuzuku, MiA and Hakuei have their story that I started writing. Subaru and Ryoga are supposed to show up. I just don't know if I'll get to it or not.
The ghost series is something I've been struggling with. The part I'm working on now is taking me a while to piece together and fix up and I'm still working on ideas for the next part of the series. I'm thinking I'll just wait until each arc is finished then do a weekly posting so that gives me some time to catch up on the next part. I have the timeline for that one planned, there are three arcs and I have my ending figured out. I've written it in my head plenty of times and will problably put it to keyboard soon enough.
Anyway, just a bunch of rambling. Once I can fix my stupid life I hope to be around more. Finish my last two big projects with fanfic before I quit like I've been telling myself I'll do for years. After To Love a Vampire and Paranormal Case Files, no more from me. I've got original work calling me. I only started doing fanfic because I had severe writer's block anyway.