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wow its been like 2 months.
life is just ok. i hate when it is just ok. daysha went away from me. she hella took off to ny. part of me went with her i think. people tell me im different. sometimes i dont know what to do with myself. i think i was too dependent on her. i miss her so much and would probably give my life to have her back here. i would definitely treat her so much better. im the worst friend ever.
i think this fucked up world works in wonderful ways though. the day daysha left i drank ALL DAY LONG. a girl from one of my classes that i only knew her name in highschool came over for like the 2nd time which was like the 2nd time i had talked to her.. LIKE EVER. she made me take a shower and took me to eat because i hadnt eaten with all that alcohol. ever since then shes been around at all the right times. the times when i feel like doing something stupid while sulking she happens to be there so i dont. ive never felt so comfortable with someone so quickly. i cant help but care about her. some say she is taking daysha's spot. THAT WILL NEVER EVER HAPPEN! DAYSHA CANNOT BE REPLACED. but its nice to have a friend when i am in definite need.
i still love living with casey even though we have almost been evicted! we've been through it but she is still the best roommate ever. i think ill keep updating this little bitch journal again.
life is just ok. i hate when it is just ok. daysha went away from me. she hella took off to ny. part of me went with her i think. people tell me im different. sometimes i dont know what to do with myself. i think i was too dependent on her. i miss her so much and would probably give my life to have her back here. i would definitely treat her so much better. im the worst friend ever.
i think this fucked up world works in wonderful ways though. the day daysha left i drank ALL DAY LONG. a girl from one of my classes that i only knew her name in highschool came over for like the 2nd time which was like the 2nd time i had talked to her.. LIKE EVER. she made me take a shower and took me to eat because i hadnt eaten with all that alcohol. ever since then shes been around at all the right times. the times when i feel like doing something stupid while sulking she happens to be there so i dont. ive never felt so comfortable with someone so quickly. i cant help but care about her. some say she is taking daysha's spot. THAT WILL NEVER EVER HAPPEN! DAYSHA CANNOT BE REPLACED. but its nice to have a friend when i am in definite need.
i still love living with casey even though we have almost been evicted! we've been through it but she is still the best roommate ever. i think ill keep updating this little bitch journal again.