I Kill god's Children

[wrex_soul]

well time for an update i guess. Josh got kicked out of his house, so now hes living with Kevin in huntsville. I went and put the security down for my apartment today, i will be moving on the first. So it works out, i will be arround to help him if he needs me. I feel bad for him, he deserves so much more in life that what he gets...but he has Kevin to make him happy, i can only be there to be back up.

i got online the other night, and Brandon was on...and we talked for the first time in months. we talked on the phone later on...it was wonderful. i miss him so much...i wish we wernt so far appart. i feel so much love for him...i think he could be "the one"...but why cant i let him be the one? why cant i tell him how much i feel for him...especially when i needed too.

he said something about comming to see me after i move...i would really like that. maybe i can show him ive changed as a person since we last met...and that i can be what he needs. but idk how i could take him leaving again... i want to see him, but i dont want to because of the pain i will feel when he leaves...but its worth it. we need to see each other, talk, and see what happens.

i can feel love, but its so hard to express it to some people...